patience

Am I trapped after I say

I love you?
because I find myself wondering
what that means
when it slips out of my mouth
whispered into a lonely darkness
after that phrase has tossed itself
around in my mind
and I question
its origin and intention
while asking
am I trapped now
am I free?
how is it to be close to your love
to have mine intertwine with yours
like my body did so naturally
as you lay on top of me
underneath your weight
pressed against the sheet
I felt that was pretty sweet
to be trapped that way
because I want to say
those powerful words
I want to be able to release myself at will if necessary