Thursday, December 28, 2017

Prayer of Integration- to share

I have put into words some creative approaches to dealing with issues of faith that seem hard to reconcile but might be easier than we have been thinking. If the wording works for you or you want to change some, feel free to use it in any way you want as long as you are coming from a place of genuine respect for the faiths that you include in this prayer or magical working or whatever you choose to call it. Some will inevitably find fault with what I am doing here, and with what I say. I understand that. I am open to dialogue about it as long as the discussion is (what I would call)productive.

Prayer for Integrating Spiritual Paths-

Great Spirit, Angels and Guides, I turn over to you all my fears about the inability to walk a path
of integrated spirituality.

I ask that the integration of my beliefs with the acknowledgement of Christ/Yeshua and what it means to accept Him be a smooth transition, from where I have been to where I am going. I give thanks that this addition to my already rich tapestry does not mean I must change my identity, religious or otherwise, but simply deepen what I already know about who and why I am.

I walk in the knowledge that I can personally shape my path with God, my Angels and Guides, my Benevolent Ancestors and the Great Goddess all in one lifetime. I ask that you remove from me any doubts that I can worship, pray and believe as I choose even while maintaining agreements with and connections to faiths that have been perceived to have always been at odds with each other.

I have devoted myself to the removal of that which does not serve my highest good and I know my Guides will walk with me and move me in my dreams and in waking hours to tell me which direction is best, when I need guidance.

Thank you for the dreams that have symbols which have me asking deeper questions and inquiring into any part of any relevant faith in my seeking and searching for truth above all else, clarity at all times, cleansing and purification when it is time to do so.

I give thanks for my life and for the chance to seek within the natural world and within humankind, all the Art, writing, conversations, Music and more that may serve to illuminate my path.

I give thanks for my gifts, and for the good sense to pray and ask when I am unsure how to apply myself, or unsure in any realm I find myself in. I give thanks for the Love in my life, from people, animals, plants and from Spirit, unseen but never unfelt. I know there is more than a lifetime's worth
of wisdom, knowledge, beauty, peace, truth, and happiness that awaits me.


Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Update: Why can't we be friends?

Open letter to Women:

Yes, I know, we meant to sort through the debris of what sexism and internalized oppression has done to our sacred spaces, our public forums and media outlets. 

We meant to do that, we may have thought we could put aside some time for that which has ripped our trust to shreds. There was a trust, if only hovering in a dimension right above our interactions, a dimension we could pull down and into us, to give light, power and weight to the desires flowing between us.

These desires might dwell in us as what we call jealousy but upon further inspection reveal themselves to be latent admiration and adoration and all kinds of being impressed with the incredible nature of our talents and bright shining beauty as women.

There are so many kinds of beauty, yes and so little room or time to name it, to fall into it, to skip what you were supposed to do just to be with her. Skip that thing to just be in her space, listening to how she talks, what she thinks about. We do not worship this way, but we can learn to love this way. We can learn to love.

Sometime, somewhere in between laundry and dinner and perhaps the debris is akin to all those clothes taking up room. You will never wear them. Similarly, it is too painful and complicated to examine what has stolen our will to bond with each other, to deeply and exactly love each other.

What about getting hurt? What about those who acted out of jealousy or spite or fear or betrayal and abandonment? I have been hurt and betrayed by women many times, in very cold hearted and sad ways. I have that song playing in my head, and I refuse to give up on friendship with women.

I will sacrifice the safety that calls me and says I can just avoid it all, never get close again, keep all the cards against your chest. My heart won't allow me to stop, I must keep looking, getting right up close, testing the waters and constructing trust within empty spaces. Where are the empty spaces? We will find them again, to fill them, shape the stunning colors and edges and depths with our breath, our brand newborn trust energy and more and more and more.

What about those who gaslighted or ghosted you? How do you reconcile this and prepare yourself to meet women who would never do that to you or to anyone? You stay open in the present moment, breathing deeply through any moment that arises, remind yourself that emptiness is form and form is emptiness and that the dance may lead you far from what you've known but you got this. Why can't we be friends? How could we not be friends? Eventually, we will see this, know it, drink it down and live in it.

Thursday, October 12, 2017

now what?

Where do I begin if I were to update right now? Hurricanes, Fires, A Klansman is president, Nobody in line after him for President is any less horrifying, and yet, and still, I am hopeful beyond all reason or measure. Sometimes we think we have seen the darkest dark before the Light and the Universe laughs at us maniacally and shows us even darker, even more horrifying.

Yet and still, you know the collective shadow of humanity had to rear its ugly head or heads at some point. I say that with confidence, we cannot think we are free from the reckoning, the deepest reflections of our imbalances, our sicknesses, our negativity, our perversions, our unwillingness to give honor and name the sacred, and so on and so forth. This is not some accident. These atrocities are not accidents.

They are called forth by parts of ourselves that wish badly to see themselves reflected in our dimensions of the world, in our human dimensions of consciousness, not out of pettiness but out of necessity. On a microcosmic level, if bad behavior and violence and perversions of many kinds show up in human children, they must be seen, treated, dealt with, understood. That can be painful. Now just imagine for a moment if you have massive parts of the population that never got seen, helped, treated and never integrated themselves within the systems of Gaia.

They never admit they are part of Earth, her eco-systems, her fundamental power to shrug us off anytime she feels like it, sort of like a shawl she is wearing, and she feels too warm now, so she needs to shed a layer. That layer is US, it is the whole human race and maybe other species that live here too.

In order to co-exist successfully on Gaia, the pain cannot be suppressed. This clearly makes her furious. Whether the deity who wants her children healed is Jesus, Mary, God, a different God, many Gods, Mother Earth, we do not have a definitive way to come to agreement and consensus among us. So we turn to what feels true to each of us, we pray about it in the way that feels true and these actions are felt between, within and through the veils of consciousness. So do just that and we can swing ourselves and this world back into balance. I will keep reminding all of us.

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Reality Time

Part 1

Writer Coach Connection is a real volunteer organization I worked for, and I had a badge and everything. I went back to my old high school, which has been remodeled, and sat down with students to help them with writing. I had no other job and was counting on a testimonial for my resume.

My badge said my name, and that I was a "Contractor" This sounds better than "Volunteer".

By the time I was about to move on, I asked the Director, let's call her Eileen Mickson, for a few helpful words on my resume or testimonial.

She refused to give me a referral or a good word and refused to tell me why, only to allude at it being some thing I did wrong with students.

She never stopped me while I was working with students, so she exploited my time and services, and then let me go without telling me why or the equivalent of severance pay, which would be a few good words about my work.

She has no reason to deny me the acknowledgement for my good work, I still have handwritten notes from 9th graders who really liked working with me. Eileen will have a chance now to right her wrong. Obviously, she has been wrong all these years. She must want redemption.

I ran into her today and it triggered me. I wanted to let her have it, but instead I gave her my business card, which I feel was the Great Spirit intervening and guiding me.

Monday, September 25, 2017

Waking up and the Ascension Process

In my early 20s -- I am now 38-- I got into the idea of Ascension, the Fifth Dimension and all kinds of things that, at the time, the early to mid 2000s, were still considered fringe new age crap that only naïve suckers who live in fantasy would ever give any attention to.

I went underground, in a sense, when it came to my deep fascination with these topics, mostly due to the scorn and ridicule that they received in certain circles. I kept it quiet, but I never lost interest and I never stopped secretly studying ascension in myself and the energy of others, their relationship to the dream they were dreaming about reality and the stories they told that made up reality.

I was comfortable with the fact that I was dreaming too, and that I could make my stories malleable and my life and disposition playful, and this felt quite freeing. Freedom within the mind can be a precious and coveted internal story. Many have a lot of lessons to learn before they have this within themselves. Consciousness has interplay and interactions with many parts of ourselves before we are made ready to have higher levels of consciousness inhabit us. Bless it be.

Well, over a decade later, I find myself back at the place once so scoffed at, but now, the search on the internet brings up find after find of folks who take this seriously. Hopefully they do not take themselves seriously as that is one of the main points of ascension in my opinion, but, on we go, from wherever we were!

Waking up, and the ascension process sound like the same thing to most of us. However, for those who are talking ascension, this is an interconnected process of deeper and more constant realization that we are linked to all that is on and within this planet in a higher or spiritual way and acting from this place of realization is a kind of waking up. Waking up has multiple definitions but it is usually distinguished by the person waking in a more personal, individual experience.

Ascension can be linked to the Ascended Masters, Jesus Christ, Buddha, Mohammed, Mary Magdalene, and many others. The Ascension of a human is also an otherworldly process and experience but is one that happens while in a human body, the Light Body becomes evident and many times people experience astral travel, or the kind of time travel that is possible for a living being. It is not the same for each and every person who takes part in the process.

One way I can describe what I see so far is that, when one realizes that we are literally writing our own scripts and stories and that what we give our attention to internally and externally, gets bigger, stronger and closer to us, in terms of the power it has to play in our story.

This could be an addiction, or it could be a musical gift. It could be a person or group, or another fascination and so on. When we truly see that we are manifesting without realizing it, and we manifest through lower to higher frequencies we start to see what lines up with us naturally, what we are calling to ourselves.

As our awareness of our thoughts becomes heightened and if we clear out our mental space so there is less mental and emotional clutter to get in the way of our reach to higher frequencies, we get better more quickly at manifestation. When I was at the beginning of this search, I thought this part of the journey was ridiculous. I did not believe it would happen for me. When it did, I started to get more impressed and fascinated by this part of the human story.

Do we need the whole of humanity to start an ascension process for the planet to ascend to higher frequencies? I would answer, no, not really. I say this due to the fact that it is very unlikely that all people will embrace this idea or way of moving through the world. One guess I have is that ascension is a kind of democratic, or majority rule system.

I will go out on a limb here and assert that if the majority of people begin waking up to their internal guidance and the energies they can tap within to change themselves and their environment, that will be the part of the population that leads the way within evolution and within other, not yet formed systems of operation for Earth, for Gaia.

Some folks believe we are near the end, that we do not have time, but the part of us that is Spirit and our Angels and Guides, know that we are eternal and we have the power to change ourselves, our lives and our world, because it is mundane and it is magic. It truly is a magical reality.

Of course that gets into what we think magic is, what physics can tell us, what particles and waves and frequencies are. We must share the knowledge we have. It makes no sense to live in a realm where some folks can see and feel within the scope of many colors and many dimensions, while others feel like paper cut out dolls in black and white.


Sunday, September 10, 2017

New Type of Session Offerings from Imaya's Modalities

Mother Wound, Father Wound, Relative Wound. Entity Extraction.

1.What are Mother/Father and Relative Wounds and how are they addressed by this work?

Keeping in mind that I work with energy, on the eternal level, I can address the past, present and future in regard to any painful or dysfunctional wounding left from the client's mother, father or anyone who played any kind of relative role for the client. In doing this work, I am able to hold clear the vision of a reality where all the residual pain or problems from the mother wound are totally gone, cleared away, healed, and this leaves the client free from the patterns holding them. Often there have been long periods of times in a clients life that have led them to wonder, can I ever release the hold this pain, pattern, fear, wound or negative energy has had on me?

The answer is yes, you absolutely can release it. If I am the one best suited to work with you about this, you will know, you will feel it and you will be guided to find me and I will be able to offer you the time and space to do this work. It is highly rewarding, incredibly helpful, sacred, holistic and when the client is ready, we can introduce a sense of humor about the process. If using humor feels useful and appropriate, we can take that route. If not, we will stay with what feels right for each session. It can take one session, or depending how deep we decide to go, it can take more sessions, to feel that the work has come to a conclusion. The story can always be revisited if needed, later on.

2. What is an Entity Extraction and how does this work address it?

I have found, by working with people from all walks of life, that there are reasons some of us hear certain kinds of negative and self defeating thoughts. They might literally or figuratively beat themselves up when they could just as well have been kind and loving toward themselves. This can be the result of spiritual entities that get attached to the person, causing the person to believe the source of the lower vibrational thinking and feeling is from inside them, when in fact it is a result of  an entity that is attached to them. This attachment can cause anywhere from mild to very severe harm, depending upon the type of entity and the level of harmful energy it brings.

As a practitioner of healing arts, I am equipped to employ a number of tactics to remove the entity. The first step is always to get permission from the host or person suffering, and then I am ready to operate on many multi-dimensional levels as I remove it once and for all. These kinds of entities that attach themselves on people are no match for the magical tools at my disposal and I am able to obliterate the contract made between person and attachment. In most cases, there was a point when the person suffering was feeling so badly, they made a verbal, psychic or energy contract with the attachment. I can destroy those in such a way they can never resurface.

Overall, if it feels right to work with me on this or other issues, go ahead and contact me on this website, and I will respond quickly.

Many blessings and blissed out wonderment to you and to all!




Friday, September 1, 2017

dreams are made

We did not start out this way. Detours along the way made the river crooked. There was never one particular path for us.

I know that so many will want you, I know many will want me but that does not matter, that is ridiculous, isn't it? I watch your face, the way your lips move when you speak and I am enthralled to the point of incredulity.

I do thank your ancestors, more than you know. you might think it is lip service, you might think that temptation would rock my world. I have no way to profoundly show you it would be rendered meaningless in the face of my devotion. So, this is not lip service, so to speak and I watch your lips move, and I hear your voice, your thoughts and I must, I cannot help but praise the ancestral spirits that are yours alone, that lent you their DNA so that you may have a body, vocal cords, multi-dimensional training here on earth, for whatever happens when we no longer inhabit our bodies, I love them.

I love that you were set up to be given the breath of life, that you may now take breaths of air, filling your lungs, bringing oxygen to your blood, in turn to your organs and your systems exist in the same physical realm as my own. We exist at the same time on earth and this is no small miracle. The fact that we found each other, it is the stuff dreams are made of. This dream that is made of both the actions and cellular structures of ancestors, is a good one. It is a holy one. It is real, it is now, it is majestic. I work to do it justice. I seek to clarify all the gifts and benefits of us joining together, despite the parts of the outside worldly agendas, the chaotic confusion that led us to the illusion of separateness.

Thursday, August 31, 2017

It is both



I would never say
He took my breath away
No
He made it easier to breathe
I would never say he stole my heart
No
All that he has had or still has of mine 
I freely gave
I would never say I fell for him
No
He's too careful with me and would catch me or warn me each time,
Yes protecting each other comes naturally with a love that endures, stretches out blissfully
and each expression lands gently beside the most recent one
I would never say love is the totality
Or the sum of all our parts
No
It is both a language and a certain 
Quality of silence that make more sense than anything we have ever mumbled
Or screamed till our throats hurt
Or whispered to deny we ever said it
Yes
The aspect we are willing and able to face
Hesitant to erase
Oh the face of you 
The space between our toes and fingers
The presence
That lingers

Monday, August 14, 2017

10 steps for the Peoples' Movement


First Ten Steps for the Peoples’ Movement-

Our Motto: We practice the elimination of exploitation of all kinds

Original Template for the self- defined “Community Organization” model, and the Planetary Healing Arts Enterprise


1.      Create Currency according to need not greed. A certain amount of agreed upon currency that lasts a lifetime is in place for Every human birth, with zero exceptions. The mandatory individual income is awarded to each human at the time of birth along with a birth certificate. The records of these births will be backed up into the cloud to maintain as much of a permanent record to ensure the allotted amount of mandatory lifetime income.

 2. Regarding all those who live below the poverty level, they will receive an amount to last them a lifetime, and can be resupplied if the currency was spent on any sort of help or treatment for anything at all that is hurting the person. All functions of the organizational model and the Enterprise operate with transparency, so when the grievance is reported, the harm is assessed by professionals who have undergone extensive therapeutic training, background checks and other checks and balances to be determined by an actual representative democratic process.

3.The representative democratic process will, in a new way, include the move for all candidates to abandon any raising of funds as the job they will be taking on will one of service to the highest good and therefore any possible motivation for the candidate to win in order to create wealth will be permanently obliterated. This ensures the conscious move from corruption to a commitment to serving the higher good of the organization or of the enterprise.

4. The few limitations put upon these amounts for all in need or who want the benefit of this new currency, must agree to let go ALL weapons of War. Battleships, Air Force supplies, Navy supplies, and all Military paraphernalia will be melted down or otherwise transformed into useful items that promote life, beauty, health and all manner of good and blessed things. We cannot keep peace and prepare for war. When it comes to guns used for hunting animals, the decision to vote for or against non-militarized weapons will arise when it does. As humanity evolves in the practices of peace keeping in a way that eliminates a militarized stance, we can re-visit the decisions about other weapons until there are actual options for people who wish to change how people in the United States relate to the issues related to animals.

5. The revolutionary aspect of the Peoples’ Movement maintains the stance that military pacifists are at the forefront of this movement. Our financial abundance and potential happiness as humans depends closely upon the end of WAR as we know it.

 6. The community organization and main template connect directly to the Planetary Healing Arts Enterprise.

7. The Planetary Healing Arts Enterprise is a fairly simple concept. All people in the following categories may contribute: individuals with capital or conscious organizations who work toward or offer resources for the improvement of earth and water and air clean up, professional healing arts which must be verified by a system agreed upon by standards set first by the United Nations as well as other verification processes not yet developed. They will be part of the Universal standards set for our species as a whole, including educational services which benefit humanity and include teachings about the resources of earth. All of these separate parties may instantly connect via internet services, public websites with transparency always and translated in as many languages as needed.

 8. Any person receiving this currency may have need for a specific kind of healing. There is no reason to limit the amount of currency needed for the many kinds of assistance and healing needed. The system cannot be exploited because of the checks and balances that will be set into place and they will be known about worldwide, and like all the rest of these steps and actions, translated into as many languages as needed

 9. This could be a call for massage, surgery, eyeglasses, knee braces and treatment for any ailment out there. All of this is covered by the enterprise, and it is worldwide, covering therapy, physical or emotional.

10. As a species, as self -defined humanity, we will reach an accord. We will find enormous and lasting relief in the agreement that currency is literally made up in our imaginations and then projected upon to the physical world. It follows then that, this new revolution can be a blood less one, due to the fact that the misery of poverty can finally, permanently be put to rest and make the final exit from the world we have known, into a historical foot note, nothing less, nothing more.



With gratitude, I bow to all my relations.






Sunday, August 13, 2017

no longer applies to me, thought others could relate

he wants to be friends with benefits
I say you got to work for it
what kind of love are you showing, when its affection
and attention you are owing
how will you handle this debt when you can no longer
pretend to forget
I bring truth to the table, want to make sure the whole idea
is mentally stable, running around making excuses for you
color me fed up, color me blue
no longer want this, drank so much disappointment I offered him a sip
creating a place for him to save face
all the while I fake a smile
and it won’t even matter who he turns to next to flatter
or if he will miss me when I am gone
and the fact that it is my energy he has been running on

Friday, June 16, 2017

the end of the archives for now

as I see it, I have poured a whole lot of breath into this blog

I have 2 short pieces. one is the piece I first read at Café International. the host was Ramu Aki. he was known for his colorful attire and commanding presence.

De donde eres? ------------

where does the poetry come from

reside originate begin in my body

not necessarily from my head or heart. probably

my fingers or lower back
ancient as blood as rivers of truth

running red and deep through our veins

poetry has a pulse, it is a living breathing entity

which allows me to be a vessel for its power

it is the way the ancestors speak to all of us

so listen carefully for their whispers
their laughter
their warnings

------------------------

Dear Santa Claus,

I have been a good girl this year. It's all relative though, isn't it?
We are not so different you and I. We are jolly and generous.

You are a Sagittarius, maybe? I have a Sagittarius rising.

About my gifts, perhaps a laptop would be the best way to go.
College practically requires I have one.

It has been good working with you. Your attention to this matter is appreciated.

You know where to find me.

Yours truly, Juliana

page 2

Who really needs another analysis of rape culture? I certainly do not want to write one.

Instead, looking at what people are doing to change the whole dream of this planet is the only reasonable choice moving forward. There should be a time and a place to lay out what the problems are, the severity and the intricacy of them.

There also must be a time to look at what is already happening that could change the whole picture.

Staying in a place of rage, dissecting the sickness that got us here, this is not an option for me. I know others who have seen similar situations, felt similar feelings. We move on from the rage because we would self destruct or destroy others if we did not, and that is a fact. Anger teaches us, but rage is a level of anger that consumes our minds and bodies. I learned, I could not stay in that place of pain without at some point causing more.

part 2

weakness versus strength in survivors

we hear "you are so strong" I know this is intended as encouragement and there is a massive shortage of things to say that help. ask the survivor, can I say....? Their mood might swing all around the place.

Make it safe for their moods to do that.

there are endless possibilities that say who we are. too many form beliefs despite a glaring lack of evidence.

many are liminal, stuck in limbo, or bardo, purgatory, you know the story.

end---

Thursday, June 15, 2017

From 2014

There is no true beginning that came from nothing------------

Do I start with the fact that the mistakes of the grown ups around are mostly what led to my introduction to rape culture? I entered into it naïve and unarmed instead of prepared and somewhat aware as others would have been.

Do I start with the stories themselves? I could give example after example of young men who did not fit some stereotypical rapist profile, using my openness, vulnerability, trust and kindness as weapons against me? Does this mean I am foolish and they are born predators? Or does it mean they are so disconnected from how to engage in ethical sexual encounters, that they were not taught or trained to need or even want consent? Let us set the record straight right now, consensual sex is redundant. There is sex, implying consent in its definition and there is rape. A misconception is that it is not rape unless a weapon is present?

My guess is that most of rape victims do not want to give anyone the satisfaction of seeing them succumb so fully to the twisted dysfunction of harming or killing the rapist. Our society is sickly voyeuristic and systematically desensitized from these cases.

End- Page 1.

an old story

you were so transparent, that was why I thought I loved you.

I could spin endlessly into the depths of what your eyes reflected.

The words you chose and

the touch you could render to mean more than you knew.

All of that was transparent

Maybe it happened so a writer could have a muse

we are such longing creatures, no?

Our longing outlasts other experiences, or so I say, who is to say?

moments fling themselves into thoughts

I am flailing so I do not attach myself to more distraction

when you, your hands on my hips, said "I want to be with you so much"

I just walked away and stilled myself. stop.

you were transparent like nobody else I knew at that time

That was why I thought I loved you

Now I realize the fleeting rush were illusions fed by fantasies

of a love you never even felt

and yes I was shown all this and yes I have nothing to miss




Sunday, May 28, 2017

Awakening- One Story

Kundalini Awakening- one story

Many of the encounters with Kundalini I have read have much to do with an energy that rose inside the body, with a fierce intensity, with its own power and left the person with their own puzzle pieces to put back together about the nature of their reality, their life up until the energy surge and what their awakening meant to them.

My experience with Kundalini rising has been quite different from all that I have read. One of the memories I have with the vivid and strong awakening energy began when I started wearing black onyx (the identity of the stone has been changed for personal reasons) around my neck. Since I have been activated by many kinds of energies and at times even spirits that were around me for a period of time, it was not that unheard of to me that this onyx would tap into my energy field to release that which needed to get out.

For the people around me, when my energy field heightens for whatever reason, it can be scary to them. It can seem that I am not me, that they cannot reach me. When these energy surges happen, those fears may be based on some truth but also based in ignorance.

The onyx around my neck activated my throat chakra and I was speaking and saying things that sounded unfamiliar to those who knew me. They wanted to keep me safe, since I seemed so far from my normal personality, one that was palatable and easier to interact with.

The main piece of the story that feels the most significant, for me, was the evening when I found myself in my bed, but still in an altered state. The experience is incredibly hard to describe, but looking back on it, what felt like an old conditioning that I carried in my soul about the construct of god. God, with a strictly male identity had been forced on my ancestors of antiquity and many in more recent times and was pushing itself up and out of me as a poison that needed to be extracted.

The way I spoke, the content I put forth in my speech, all this was clearly a sign of the forced story about the true divine life force power from the Kundalini legend. This pure life force energy was one of the "voices" of the Great Goddess, the Great Mystery who is all genders, who birthed the masculine and feminine and all other possible constructs of gender in her extensive rainbow light essence.

The power of protection over my soul was shown to me. The ability she has to show you painful, difficult mirrors is quite impressive. The ability she bestows upon some of us, maybe more of us than we think, to erase that narrative, that story and dream of who we have been and who we can become, is an unparalleled power in the scheme of things.

As I lay in bed after several days of this mighty energy moving through me, I closed my eyes. In some ways, that old, poisonous, forced, male construct, which arose in a toxic, patriarchal manner, was being pushed out of my soul, cleansed from me. Though my eyes were closed, I saw, clearly, that many kinds of pain I had felt and had been lodged in me were swimming out of me in colored lights golden, silver, purple and just starlight.

As the pain swam out of me, the power, strength, beauty, love, wisdom, intelligence, discernment and compassion, that are all my birthrights began swimming into to me. I could hardly keep up with the transformations that I was being called to experience and know at that time. Faces of people who had hurt me, their names flowed back to me, because the course of my river flow, my oceanic depth was becoming so strong with Kundalini goddess manifestation, that I was able to absorb and transform within myself, that which seemed to have power over me, now, it held no power.

The experiences I just shared happened in 2012. Within the last 5 years, I have been learning to be more cautious, though still spontaneous, and accurate in my discernment of who to be around and who to stay away from. It has only been recently that I have been able to assess my experiences and put them into a framework that can be read and understood by other people. Until now, or around now, I have been stuck in some sort of liminal space, the space between visible and invisible.

As I become more decidedly visible and seen on purpose, but seen within a framework that I create, I notice what disappears from my view. That which begins to disappear from the view of the person who finds this kind of path, is of a vibrational arrangement that it is heavier with shadow, unexamined pain, distraction, fear and a whole host of other energetic arrangements. Love and light are intentions and goals to manifest within and to bring into the world's energetic maps, but without an integrated shadow, that love and light will be like wisps of fading daylight, into the all encompassing darkness of mystery. This level of love and light intentionality will inevitably fade into the unknown and the ancient types of powers that can be put to sleep, or awakened, depending on the skill level of the beings who wish to manipulate and use them, or extinguish them. When we begin extinguishing the shadow energy that we relied upon, either in this incarnation or another, we essentially give ourselves over to an integrated, holistic, visionary approach to being fully human, and to awakening.

I have been assisting folks in terminating energetic contracts with people, places, situations and more that keep them from fulfilling their purposes. Often they start finding out what those purposes really are and stop sabotaging themselves habitually. In our world, it is not generally an easy or instantly discovered path toward the wholeness we seek, the truth we seek and the answers about our existence we seek. The understanding that stagnation creates illness is the heart of almost all of the ailments we truly suffer from, and it is not a matter of fault or blame.

In our cells, there are stories and there are maps.

When we pause at the intersection of our current DNA knowledge and intuitive practices, we are linking up with possible new answers to problems that plagued our ancestors.

We need new stories. We need them to be breathed into our bloodstreams, and into the blood stream of the conscience, the psyche of our cultures. We need new stories so we do not pass on the psychic pain and oppression that perverted our human experiences and killed the visionaries, dreamers, wisdom teachers and more. We need stories to feed to the babies, and the children, so they grow into the better world that is possible, and so they grow up knowing they have the power to change
the most seemingly impossible parts of themselves.

The new stories will appear in our minds, we need only to get clear and quiet enough to hear them. Many stories will be birthed and manifested into this world. For this, I give continual thanks.

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Time or location, Original piece from 2002

your wounds have no date, time, place or other label

they wear the cold garment of refusal to heal

and refusal to get worse

they are tender to the touch

as my growing panic stretches around today

and if it bursts

if it explodes

it will cease to be panic

soon it will be time to shapeshift

and rise from the ashes

like the fluttering phoenix of dreamtime

pulling on a reserve of patience and dignity

your strength has no name date time location or label

but it has purpose

haunted by past lifetime sins

scratching out verses and litanies

of bittersweet truth, as you hold my eyes open

and you lean on my eternal roots

the pressure intensifies until we collapse

and remake the reality

my art and the poetry of your strength

give me a thick rope to swing from

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

What roles will you play?

  1. I have such mixed reactions to what I read these days, there is the obvious initial rage and fear and sadness that things seem to be getting so utterly insane. But then there is this part of me that feels so incredibly distrustful of EVERY thing I read online about the government. There is the part of me that says phone calls, petitions, even massive marches in protest are not the only answers, if this has really risen to the fever pitch it seems to have reached. We do have power but those who conduct militarized forces will deploy more weapons, use more violence, jail and prison without trial, and worse than we can fathom. They will stop at nothing to make us believe we have no power. I was a grassroots organizer. I have a very strong activist background. But something deep inside me says right now, this is different. What we are facing is different. Perhaps it has always been different and I am just now realizing it. I am resolved in my understanding that each person needs to rebel in their own way and each of us have some soul searching as to what that needs to be. For some, traditional activism is their choice. For others, resistance is meditation and radical loving kindness that is more expansive than usual. I am not saying I have the answers, but I am suggesting that lots of others also do not have answers, even when they are convinced they do and that they need to tell others what they should be doing. This is a time where we need to reflect deeply and assess what kinds of responses we want to give to the parts of the population that promote bigotry, violence, ignorance and are very good at baiting people into debates that go nowhere and end up in more divisiveness. I hear folks resisting the urge to reach out to other groups that serve up hatred and fear, and I get that. I simply wish to offer up the possibilities that all kinds of change are happening in all kinds of ways every day that are not as visible, not easy to recognize, and that do not get media coverage. My intention in writing now, is not to say submit, be pacified, be silent. I am urging folks to find out what they want their roles to be during the next 4 years and beyond. One way I resist is to not allow anything I say or do or think be altered or dictated to me by any politician, from the oval office or anywhere. I will stop here, but this is far from over.

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

Context, Meaning and Heated Discussions

Deep in thought, partway into a relaxation, and a mental purging of the events gaining steam and momentum, it hits me.

Folks feel that they must be heard, that their frustration is due to not being heard. I ponder this and feel myself rising above it all, as sometimes happens, for that eagle eye view, for that place beyond worldly noises and sights. From that perch, I survey this mess. I see the beauty and kindness squandered by cynical mockery and practices of cruelty.

It comes to my attention that there is a glaring mistake made by so many of the people engaging in these massive struggles for justice. I notice, context is key. It is the key to unlocking the closed minds of those we push up against. In so many cases, reading a brief message on a sign held up in a march, or heated debates online, the context for the opinions and messages is lost, while being pushed forward into the loudness and fierceness of the opposition.

So much is lost amidst all of this because the context for many arguments and potential solutions are buried underneath the emotions and panicked energy. For example, a feminist might attempt to convince a person about the civil right that is a woman's right to choose. This sensible message is so often taken out of context in order to be destroyed that many people have abandoned the viewpoint altogether.

We do not all laugh at the same jokes, we do not all cry at the same tragedies. There are infinitely varied viewpoints and we cannot agree on definitions of words, like the word "feminism". We are so often presented with information that is so wildly out of context that we reject it, but in reality, we have not properly understood what we have heard or read, so rejecting it is a premature reaction. This is the song and dance of the modern debate. Definitions of terms that we all accept to be understood when they truly are not, and information taken entirely out of context, this is the name of the game.

What I have shared with you here, is what the eagle eye's view has given me. I encourage you to fly above it all to see what you see.

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Flow of meaning always taking shape

Maybe it is the combined energies and intentions of the objects holding space on the altar in the front room. They seem to blend into the background while taking shape with the strength of the beauty they rode in on, the words are properly placed, the images are arranged to tell a story but only in the most subtle, intimate way. Most would walk by the fireplace and what is displayed on the altar with a dismissive nod, and without taking just a few moments to contemplate the strategy, the understated décor that is more than just an aesthetic treat.

Maybe it is an activated presence of Tara, goddess and bodhisattva and being of many roles, all embodied with fierce compassion, blessings of liberation, dissolver of suffering, giver of longevity. I know she fills the room at times and sinks behind invisible veils at other times. Her mantra is right there if one wished to speak it out and see how it feels on the tongue, yes, Tara's Tongue, the name of this blog. It implies mother tongue, it implies a language of compassion, which is one born of her spirit, her light, her courage, her being.

Maybe it is the balance of combined story and essence, as my fingers are guided to place and arrange and move and create and re-create and keep a flow of truth, a flow of meaning always taking shape. To the untrained eye and to the uninitiated, it simply looks like a gathering of objects and cards. One must already be meeting the world one visits in a deeper way to be cognizant of the reality created in the room by what has been shaped and what has been lined up together.

Maybe it is the application of this mantra: "Words weave intention" and that is what I apply when creating this space. It is not only the words that create intention, but each physical piece has a purpose. Each compilation is a snapshot but remains private.

Maybe you will need to create one of your own if you have not already, in order to truly know what I am saying.