even when I am the only one

I have more than 

questions now

I have aches and longing

and laughter that changes the whole room

even when I am the only one in it

I have more than questions

I have timid answers that want to be humble

that do not want to ruffle feathers 

but do want to burn down 

the structures of oppression

and that is not polite

so Fuck being nice and Fuck being polite

and let us allow real authenticity to lead us

you do not need to be angry to be authentic

but being angry can be authentic and cathartic and real

I have more than questions

for all of us

for each and everyone

for myself and 

my family

for the strangers and the 

closest to me

and the questions hit the wall with force

then slide down to the floor

are they useless?

No, beyond the questions is hope

there is faith

there is a belief in healing and improvement

there are dense forest mountainsides

and invisible signs that are screaming

Not For Human Consumption

but I am not sure who else

hears the screams. 

seasons

moonlight on the path

gives way to the dawn

summer dies into fall

winter arrives in humble glory

spring pushes the plants 

from under to above

I loved you with each step I took

each heartbeat, each stolen look

rain fall that overshadows all

washes away the poison

until only what we cannot see 

remains

glorious samsara sunset

slipping down past the horizon

shining less and less on the pain

until we cannot hear or see

still, we can feel

moments that are way too real.

hungry ghosts who dwell among us

are felt at twilight

seen in the shadows 

when light flickers over them

I loved you with each step I took

each heartbeat, each stolen look.

who or what?

It was when the raven touched down

I felt the ground shake

it was when the crow sang out her message

in a crow's language

I felt the earth rumble

It was when the waves crashed on the sand

I felt the earth tremble

It was all the sounds and sensations

pointing to change

pointing to a way to rearrange

and a chance to escape 

what seems inevitable

the birds touch down

they pause with their talons holding onto branches

in that liminal moment

where one world has not dissolved yet

and the new one has not surfaced

has not materialized

how long will we spend in this limbo?

how long will the animals point the way

all of the tree branches sending out signals

the roots of the trees sending out signals 

this home planet twirling in slow motion around a 

bright and proud star

but this sun is not permanent

and we are still in limbo

we are still liminal

how long will we cast shadows?

how long will we make footprints on the sand

on the soil

how long will our souls endure the torment

before giving out

something has to give

who or what will it be?

sanctuary

silence

masks shattering like glass on hard tile floors

silence

autumn is on the way 

silence

authentic voices slide over the breeze

silence

she meant what she said, and so did I 

silence

spontaneous healing laughter 

silence

aligning with the thunder showers

silence

These beings are more alive now, and so am I

silence

releasing old energy, and the hold it had on me

silence

breaking the spells 

silence

calling in new spells

silence

strong protection and reassurance

silence

revealing break downs leading to break throughs 

silence

finally finding sanctuary amidst the chaos

silence.

letter to you all; sprinkled with sparkles.....

 Fairy

Angel

Mermaid

These exist in realms that run parallel to ours, or they exist behind the veils

of human perception. They are real in the sense that we can sense qualities

that they have within us and each other. I can feel the way I imagine fairies 

would. Others might feel ways that angels might feel. It is the same with 

mermaids. Often as we age, we are encouraged to let go of imagining 

these realms and our place in them because we cannot tangibly interact with

them and are expected to stop believing in possibilities. How boring is 

that?!

My coven sisters and I came up with Fairy, Angel, Mermaid after a night 

of ecstatic laughter, peering into each other and celebrating what we saw, going

back and forth with our mutual readings and so much more. We felt the 

presence of spirit in the room. It was slightly different for each of us, but we shared a 

momentary multidimensional experience that changed us. The spontaneous healing, the 

release with the magical laughter and the depth of the sight we all encountered was 

so powerful and cleansing. 

Now, we have a group name. Fairy Angel Mermaid is who we are when we join 

together and explore possibilities outside of the mundane realms. 

Adults need to play. We do not all play in the same way but the powerful

releases that come when we LET GO and safely free ourselves is the most 

therapeutic, helpful, fun, exciting experience I have had in years, and possibly 

ever. We get stronger when we imagine. It is of note that we were sober for this 

journey. We were high but grounded and sober adding no extra chemicals to the 

night. 

That is what I can share for now. I encourage you all to create space to do this kind

of play, and I will explain another time 2 exercises you can do to get started. 

With love and sparkles, Juliana Sage

land back now

Here with your reminder that billionaires do not exist and money isn’t real.

Billionaires do not exist because we have made up all currency. Even writing a check is a way to refer to money that we imagine these people have, and they truly have nothing if we think about it. Money is not real, but we assign it value and could just as easily take that away from everyone if we all agree that currency is completely made up, and it really is. 

What is real then and what is needed?

Conflict is real. Justice is real. It’s time now, to stop fighting and start building. 

We are, of course, on the precipice of massive changes and what those changes look like are up to us.

One of the best places to invest energy in is the land back movement.

If you are new to this I will briefly explain about it. I have not cited my sources but could find them if needed

-What is the land back movement? - let us summarize for now-

• A Call for Restoration: The Land Back movement is a comprehensive campaign advocating for the return of ancestral lands to Indigenous peoples, coupled with the restoration of their inherent Sovereignty and control over those territories.
• More Than Ownership: The Land Back movement is about stewardship, not just possession; it emphasizes Indigenous-led conservation, cultural preservation, and the right to self-determination as established in historical Treaty Rights.
• A Spectrum of Action: The Land Back movement operates through diverse legal, political, and social channels, from federal Fee-To-Trust processes to private land purchases, conservation easements, and public advocacy.
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• The way I see it:
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• The land back movement is a situation where non natives can amplify the voices of the indigenous led actions and ideas about the future of the planet
• drawing upon centuries of connection to the lands we inhabit, indigenous leaders must be at the forefront of these planetary changes. We can go into why, but trust me, this is a critical piece of our positive outcome as a species.

And then forget

I don’t want to think of my life in terms of numbers

height, weight, age
I will remember the night air
The smoke of the sage
The feeling just after
The sun sets 
And how the moon 
Comes into view

All of that is beyond numbers 
Beyond calculations and
Measurements 
All of that is unique
In the moment 
No two raindrops 
No two snowflakes 
Are the same
So why assign numbers 
To the everchanging events unfolding 
Without pausing
To be monitored 
And assessed while 
They are all still moving 

I don’t want to live my life in terms of numbers. 
I’d rather use the alphabet 
and then let myself forget.