hyper vulnerable

the inner reality
of one who is hyper vulnerable
is full of questions that push pull thrust violently
with an urgency to be answered, problems that may have
no solution
screaming to be answered
put yourself to the task of fixing what begs to be fixed
but perhaps cannot be
at least
not quickly
not easily
and not by you alone
though the person who acts
in the hyper vulnerable manner
will make it appear that it must be you
that fixes this issue whatever it may be
whatever it is that is creating conditions
for hyper vulnerability

"they say that love means to let go
but still you should know
you are the truth you are the light
you are the spirit  the reason why I shine"

pressed against the wall of her own silence
she begins to re build
inside herself
reconstruct
from the ground up
 all that has happened up until this point
taught her strength
whatever she sets her mind to will bring
desired results
deciding ways to channel devotional tendencies
that arise
without provocation
arise no matter where
what who when
arise
with urgency
not unlike
all those questions
pushing
pulling
thrusting
she is not above lusting
and the direction for
this devotion
must be carefully cautiously determined
every
conscious step
of the way.