How do I start my shadow work?

 If you are someone who knows about shadow work, and wants to find a place to start when it comes to diving into it, I would be honored to help you begin. The methods I use could be considered therapeutic but this is not therapy. at least not the traditional kind.

It will be powered by your will and desire to integrate shadow content with your light within, in order to bring you deeper understanding of your human condition. You do not need to tell anyone about this but you can if you wish to. This is for your healing process, not an ego driven checklist of spiritual tasks that you will use to craft an identity suited to please others. This is For You. 

One of the best ways to start is with compassion. You will need compassion for all of your shadow work and I intend to help you direct it toward yourself! Some might be great at this and have already practiced it. Others will have some trouble with it. I will try to write out the first exercise mindful of the many levels that varying folks are at. 

Start with a story from your past, and a version of yourself that you have trouble with. This will be a part of yourself and your journey you probably have never told anyone about but that still haunts you. I am speaking of painful times, ones where you felt loss, anger, betrayal, jealousy, embarrassment and shame or many other possible discomforts. It does not matter if you caused the problems or if trauma happened to you, in both cases you can apply what I suggest. 

Exercise 1:

Carve out at least 20 minutes for yourself, get comfortable and make sure you won't be bothered. 

Call to mind that version of you, it can be from the past or even the present. Get familiar with that version, what does he or she look like, feel like, and where is he or she? Find her or him as the inner light of guidance within yourself. Find her or him and sit with your version. Walk with him or her. Does he or she have anything to say to you? Since this is you, you will know how the version feels. Ask him or her what she or he wants from you.

In many cases you can create an energy blanket of love to drape around his or her body. Fill that blanket with love, compassion, and forgiveness. Tell this version you know they did the best they could at the time with the tools they had. Gently tell them they will get more tools to handle their challenges if they need them. Spend some time with this version. Listen to what they say and watch what they do, if anything. No matter what, share your compassionate energy with them. 

At this point, you can get specific about what happened to cause the pain or problems. Be totally honest, this is conversation between your self and another part of your psyche, so you cannot really hide. The integrating process can only happen when the honesty is complete and total in every way.

Example:

Present version: I know I could not have protected you/us when the trauma occurred but I am here now and I can help you with my own strength and compassion. As you heal, so will I. 

younger self: I want to trust that but I still feel unsafe. I still feel like I will be hurt again.

Present: I hear you and I hold you in a powerful space of love and grace. I have learned new tools to help keep both of us safe. 

younger: I am listening but still unsure. I want to believe you. 

Present: I will show you over time that we will get better and be ok. Someday we will even thrive. But for now, I will keep visiting you in my heart and thanking you for shielding me in a way you never should have had to do. 

End of Exercise 1.

The point to this is to not go too fast or do too much right away. I hope this makes sense to you and that you get something good out of it. 

If you want more content like this and healing practice information visit me at

www.imayasmodalities.com

More than Jesus?

 I have encountered Christians who are open minded but who still wonder why anyone would need more than Jesus on their spiritual walk?

Isn't Jesus enough? Didn't he do enough for us? Sure, he has been associated with many miraculous acts and with a highly impressive identity. However, I can only truly believe what happens in the private space of my prayers, not what has been written down by the hands of men, with agendas they do not usually make known. I have learned from the stories about him and some of the stories feel legitimate. The bible, the Torah, the Quran, comprise the three holy books of the Abrahamic Faiths. There are other Jewish Holy books but for now we will consider these three.

I know Jesus, not through scripture but through my own prayers. I know the space of unconditional love and healing he represents in my mind. I know the peace he represents in my heart. The actions taken by those who claim the identity of Christian do not make it into that heart space. They are outside, they are separate. They do not dictate what I do, think or believe. 

 This portrayal of Jesus as healer, in the bible, feels very real and quite important. It is the most important piece of information to me, that he was a healer. He worked with energy to heal people and he attributed these healings all to God. He spoke out for the most marginalized and hurting parts of the populations he was a part of. This is what I feel when I connect to him. Therefore, when I do energy healing work with people, when I use the drum and shamanic techniques, I know he is with me in those actions. 

I know that Jesus said people would do greater works than him, and it is because this is known that I do not fear any harm coming to me for doing healing work. I do not have to constantly name him in all that I do because my works speak for me and if Jesus is the healer the stories say he is, then he would bless the work I do. I know he does so anyway. 

Energy Shifts Now

 Before now, I have not posted about what I receive from spiritual guides or inner guidance. I have been cautious but open about my own thoughts. I feel called tonight to share a bit of what I have been picking up on when I get quiet enough to hear it. Since 2012 at least, but probably before that, our planet has been undergoing tremendous energy shifts. At some point in the future science will be verifying what intuitive folks already know.

The events of today are catalytic in the sense that they will lead to the next phase of changes. There are many ways this change can happen but all the ways involve the crumbling of the masks that people have been wearing. They do so to prop themselves up into positions of power and promote corruption, once in secret, now much more openly.

The masks are an important piece to this. Humanity has always had a shadow side. Abrahamic religions would say this shadow side falls under the "sin" category. But that misses some of the point. Shadow can be integrated and once it is, it can serve the purpose of more complete understanding of our human condition. Sin is supposed to be taken away or forgiven. But the masks hide shadow content, and all of that can be transformed. All of that can be integrated.

The question now is, what do we do when the masks fall? What do we do when the ugliness and violence that has always been there in some form, becomes blatant and in your face? To some parts of the population, this violence has been well known from the start.

Now, it seems, we are at a crossroads. A festering sore, left untended, will get worse and could become lethal. We ignore these signs of unrest and privileged violence at our peril. We must come up with solutions that include doing deeper work. It must not fall on the marginalized people to simply forgive the perpetrators, we must do better than that. That would be like asking people to jump from deeply wounded to healed without any medicine or treatment at all. That is not how this works!!

The energy changes on our planet support the cleansing of our bodies and minds from the kind of suffering that sickens and divides us. Nature holds most of our remedies and we are in great danger of making the planet uninhabitable. Once the masks fall, we are left with the real identities of humans that have ingested so much cruelty, led with so much disregard, hate and indifference they are energetically hardly recognizable as humans. Again, some intuitive folks already know this.

I am coming to you from a place of fierce compassion. All the love and light talk ends up usually sounding naïve, tone deaf and superficial. If we have reverence for the shadow and are finding ways to integrate our own personal shadow material, we can find our way to more lasting solutions. Many of us are wary of religion and suspicious of spiritual communities, and for good reasons. Lots of folks who have charismatic personas and catchy ways to make spiritual work sound good are wearing masks for sure. Charlatans are everywhere.

Back to the energy changes in our midst! I encourage you to explore, in all sincerity, your role in these changes. There is hard work ahead but if we foster patience and hope, we will move through this phase and the next few by transforming, uplifting, integrating, and truth telling. Join me, the loving guides, the loving Ancestors and other spiritual forces you want in your corner.

We were born with instructions and guidance within us. Now is our time more than ever before.

Grace is consistent

 Here is a conceptual framework for grace from the Creator, however you name this being. Let us assume that Water, Earth, Fire and Air were created at some point. Water does not discriminate regarding whose thirst gets quenched, or who gets clean. Fire does not pick and choose who benefits from the warmth of the flames. Air can be breathed by anyone at any time. Earth provides sustenance for all, no matter who you are. If we were supposed to exclude some beings, there would be written into the experience of these gifts some way to do that. There are many more ways to describe and explain this but I am confident that I have made my point. We need not fear wrath or judgement from an external source. It is humans that create the exclusion, the discrimination, the poor management of the gifts we have as participants in this earthly realm.

About the Shadow

To an extent, we are defined by our opposites. Shadow cannot exist if there is no light for contrast. So called “light workers” must become familiar with shadow work if the light they call in is to have any meaning or purpose.

None of us are light with no shadow content. It’s a matter of managing, facing, owning and transforming the shadow content, and then integrating this work so it doesn’t arise in a persons consciousness unexamined. This is not simple or easy. There is also not only one way to do it. There are many ways.

It’s not for the faint of heart. Despite this, I encourage all of us, when we are ready, to do the work. Contact me via my website if you want to discuss it further.

www.imayasmodalities.com

The Entheoi (indwelling Gods)

 the indwelling gods gather 

as this late summer storm swells

the air is full of seasonal mystery, ancient history

the gods that dwell within are activated by

the harnessed energy of the winds of change

so when the air is so still, no breeze

emotions within are deep, silent seas

and we are left to wonder

when we will become activated next and in what

context? 

will the Entheoi speak with my mind and voice as tools

for wisdom and guidance and

my truth, layers of truth unfolding, golden?

 

languages of the Spirit

What if I told you one way Spirit speaks to you is through your imagination? What if I told you I know this from experience? What if I told you Spirit has been speaking to you your whole life? Some of you already know this, know how to tune in. Others are not interested or simply do not believe me. When I say Spirit as a catch all phrase, keep in mind some would just say God, or the Goddess, or Ancestors, Angels or Guides. I am speaking of all these sources. I trust we can access wisdom from many realms, and many of us do without knowing anyway.

I want to tell you a secret, that of course is not really a secret, but it has been disputed, distorted and hidden at different times in many places. It is this: you can contact Spiritual sources that are not in physical vessels, that have wisdom for you, and that come from vibrational frequencies of pure unconditional love. These sources are actively interested in you. They wish to assist you no matter who you are, no matter how bad or undeserving you may think you are. To these sources of guidance, you are worthy of help, love, truth and liberation from suffering.

I have chosen over time, to eliminate my contact with realms that are not specifically sources of unconditional love. The only Spiritual sources I listen to or tap into want the best, highest outcome of healing for EVERY single living being. If you want to do the same, you can. The secret, not really a secret, is to terminate the contracts you have with any source that doesn’t whisper love and healing into your heart at all times. Any source that falls short of that energy can go. I mean it, it can go. Forever.

Cutting the cords of attachment and negating contracts does not look the same for every single being. For me, I started doing this work by identifying who in my life was not coming to me with my best interest in their heart. I began to distance from them, then I would destroy the contract I had with them. This is a type of energy work and I can tell you all I know; I want to tell you all I know about. I want anybody who wishes to have this information to have it.

You might be wondering about the nature of the contracts I speak of. The nature of the contracts has to do with the energy you embodied at the time the contract was made. Over my life, I have unwittingly created contracts with lower frequencies and later I was able to destroy them. Think of it this way. If energy can be seen as light for this example, imagine a light being beamed at you from a lower type source. When you are weaker you may be subjected to receiving some of that light. When you get stronger and become aware of the issue, you can blast a higher frequency light in that direction with the intention of destroying any contact with it and it will succumb to your intention. That is the nature of this kind of language, one of the many languages of the Spirit.

Many humans over the ages have gotten rather lost in the activity of placing a name and identity on all these types of Spirit energy. I have my understanding of them but it is still evolving and I assert that unless your understanding is also still evolving, your knowledge will at some point grow stagnant, you will not be able to learn deeper or more expansive truths about this and that would be a shame.

Since Spirit shows up differently for different folks, it does not follow then that there is just one way to interact with these energies. I encourage you to see how it shows up for you and to listen carefully. If you are hearing, seeing, sensing, feeling, knowing, tasting, smelling or in any other way experiencing any kind of harmful energy, I recommend ending the interaction permanently. I am aware that there are energies that want connection to humans that can do and will do harm if invited in, but they need to be invited.

In my understanding, you can unwittingly invite them into your space, your life, your body but this is not a reason to move fearfully. No matter who you are, where you are or what you are doing you can call in protection and defense against any spirit source that is harmful. In these cases, it is useful to name a spiritual source you feel close to, and know you can trust. You will know what name to give the spirit of protection. For some it will be Jesus. For others it will be Ancestors or Angels. Find out what it is for you and I urge you, do not let anyone override your own intuitive awareness of what to call the being or beings that offer you protection. If you try out a name for this purpose and it does not feel right, change it! You are a sovereign being.