all along

moving through
these vibrations
these frequencies
while cleansing intentions
so the transformations
intensify
opening up portals
to new dimensions
while weaving intentions
for healing
for coming to terms
with being alive
being in a vessel
being mysteriously
conscious for now
listening to spirit
and translating
it all into everyday speech
and dance and song
and knowing all along
that this path never comes easy
that its not always sunny and breezy
but the rain is
a tangible gift
we cannot take for granted
that water IS life
that the breath work
leads to death
of the strife
and birth of sparkling new moments
that the breath
of this life
is an echo
of otherworldly blessing
until now I was
just guessing
taking my time
inventing a rhyme
and channeling
all along.

reflections from 2013

pressed against the wall of her own silence
she begins to rebuild
inside herself
reconstruct
from the ground up
all that happened until this point
taught her strength

now focusing that
will power
to bring desired results

and in essence we are full of contradictions
teaching us we have complexities
that emerge even when we worked
diligently to simplify

and the medicine of the silence
helps her rebuild
reconstruct
from the ground up

wanted to say this

the beauty of possibilities
the habitual knowledge practice
of deep gratitude
the essence of this message
like water, like perfume
capturing truth and winds of change

I want to tell him
I am not fragile in any way
but I am vulnerable
please make that distinction

you win

because you are my  muse
I will follow you
into the next moment
with a heart felt smile
ask you to stay awhile
because you are my muse
I will let you confuse
my reasons for showing up
until I laugh it off quietly
admitting defeat
because you are my muse
you win
and I surrender the prize
the look in my eyes
because you are my muse
I move gently around
the possibilities we have outstretched
before us
because you are my muse
I am outstretched before you

identity -- 1 and 2

two movements. 

1.
she speaks as if she doesn't know she is beautiful. she moves as if she doesn't know she's light. she hurts like she doesn't know she's god. she laughs because she knows she's alright. (2018)

2.

I am the laughing Buddha because I know the big medicine of laughter. I am the cosmic Christ, because I love my enemies and I know the oneness is true. I am Shekinah, feminine life force, and all is born from my woman form. I am laughing shaking a fullness of empty from within a night sky darkness.
my heart is vulnerable and open so I like to pretend it is not. the wound is forever healing but I know the big medicine of laughter (2002)

"Lived in the South, but fought for the North"

This is for my ancestors. Not all of them, because I am assuming there are people in my line who I would rather not address, who would fade into obscurity and that would be fine. We all have some of those I am sure. Ancestors were people, so many characters, so many right and wrong actions taken, so many truths and complexities. This is for my ancestors. They say the veil between the worlds gets thinner this time of year. I have no idea if it does, but just in case, I want to honor those in my line who did way more good than bad, who were kind, compassionate, caring, thoughtful, and bold! I want to honor the ones on my mothers side, who I titled this piece for, they lived in the South but fought for the North in times when whites could so easily accept the violently racist status quo. And I will keep their memory alive, because when people do what is right when most others around them are doing wrong, this is what we uphold, the actions of the ones who choose to honor the lives of the oppressed, who seek to lift them up. I want to honor the ones on my father's side. The Irish, the Eastern European, the ones who came to Ellis Island and found some kind of existence away from their familiar mother lands. I honor those in my line who carried more love in their hearts than bitterness or malice. And I say all this tonight knowing we are dealing with many of the same kinds of pain and injustice our ancestors knew very well. It is up to us now, up to the living to make this world better with our actions, not just our words. Bless it be, now and bless it be for our future.

Ceremony in 3 movements

3 movements:

the first: Karmic Release Prayer

the second: Shadow Integration Ceremony

the third: An Akashic Confirmation

Movement 1:

Invocation:

We call Earth, Air, Fire, Water, We call the Creator/Wakan Tanka, Tunkashila/Grandfather, White Tara, swift liberator. We call ancestors of your lineage who have only the purest and highest intentions for your wholeness, healing, well being and longevity. This sacred circle is only open to beings who carry and pour forth vibrations of deep compassion, all kinds of love that nourish and comfort. This sacred circle welcomes the energies of honesty, vigilance, integrity, hope, protection, as the nature of these energies may overlap and grow in power. The power built in this sacred circle is one rooted in self awareness, desire for release of all that no longer serves your highest good.
By all that is above, and all that is below, and all that is in between- we are now between the worlds
and what happens between the worlds can change all the worlds. Bless it be.

1. Karmic Release Prayer:

Now I am in the presence of the beings who wish to assist my transformation. As I breathe in, I fill my lungs with the light whose color I choose. As this light fills my body, I release the out breath, with the thought, I release you, go now, be changed forever. As I practice this breath, I take in Air, feeling and seeing the colors I choose in their purest vibration settling into me and relaxing my muscles. And as I get more comfortable, breathing in the color or colors of this light, I breathe out, with the simple thought, I release you, go now, be changed forever.


As I feel myself and the weight of my precious body where I am lying down, I fill my mind with the colored light and energy that comes easily, and naturally to me. And now, as I breathe out, I say to that which harmed me in the past or to that which might harm me in the future, go now, you have no name, I take away your power. I lay here, and I will sit with this incredible truth.

Again, I breathe in a beautiful color and as I exhale, I say, you caused me to suffer, you have no name, you have no energy. I pause, to take in the great capacity I have within me, as my eternal birthright, to be forever blessed with this fantastic ability. From the deep roots of the powers of all the Orishas who have ever blessed me or who know my true inner being, I see from this place of transformation. I can move forward in the world without any cobwebs over my eyes, I can see my way through the maze of human beings with clear sight and clear knowing. I know that my life and my body and my hands have been blessed by the gods and goddesses to do the work and walk the blessed path of a peace maker among human beings and a truth speaker always.

Next, I turn inward, into the great starry cosmos of my inner sanctuary. I look into it, peering into it as though it were a pond of water, reflecting back to me all the deeds and thoughts of this lifetime and all previous lifetimes and as I look closer, even the future lifetimes. I pause here, in gratitude that I may be shown what I am facing when I get to the spinning doors of birth, life, death and rebirth. I am shown, without a doubt, that the pain I have felt comes right up against, like a neighbor, to any pain I ever caused anyone, knowingly or unknowingly, and in this very holy space, I speak to all the pain, caused by me or visited upon me.

And now, as I breathe out, I say, I let go all the resentment, anger, bitterness, fear, hatred, and all other negative forms of energy that keep me from permanently releasing all the pain and suffering I may cause others, that might still dwell within me.

With the divine light and immediate blessing of the Great White Tara shining into me, I ask her, oh, swift liberator, please obliterate the remnants of shadowy intentions that would only weigh me down, when what I seek is to be uplifted and to uplift my fellow sentient beings.

2. Shadow Integration Ceremony

Now with the gentle energy of Great Tara moving into my cells, touching each place that has memories of suffering, in any part of my lineage, I pause here. I look at what I have been taught about the use of force. The Ascended masters teach that humans must be very cautious about the use of force.

The flow of energy that is the most beautiful and most transcendent are the flows that are not forced. When I enter divine space and sense the flow of the water or the dance upward of the fire flame, or the blossoming of plants, growing of forests, I know, all these are my relations. As one who truly comprehends the divine flow embodied in nature, I turn over to you, angels, guides and beneficent ancestors, my tendency to ever incorrectly take up the use of force, against any living being. As a warrior, I  instantly know and respect how I am to step away from the incorrect use of force and as a result, I will offer protection to all who require it, to the best of my ability.

As these beautiful prayers are offered up, now I turn to Grandfather, Tunkashila, and I ask that I may be present as a warrior for truth, for all kinds of justice and nourishment for the rainbow people of earth. I ask that you assist me in welcoming those who have been pushed out and feared. I ask that you make room in my heart and my earth community for the two spirit people, whose persecution must end so that the evolution and upliftment of our species remains intact in its progress.

I will be deeply grateful to contribute to that which strengthens, educates and heals all of us. Assist me in building the bridges between humans in all our communities that will serve the highest good, and assist me in terminating the agreements with those who have shown to work against the highest good. Tunkashila, please assist me in the practice of transparency, and as I truly learn how to practice it, that I may then turn and offer others the opportunity to do the same.

When the time comes for more cleansing which I have begun, I will be humble and open to learning more from all my relations, Tunkashila. Please grant me the enduring kindness and knowledge needed for a highly functional position of leadership, if that is what you find it right to assist in giving me. Help me to clarify all that I have been writing, singing and preparing for, and comfort me with the awareness that none of my story is in vain. I ready my body and spirit to close this ceremony now but keep an open invitation to those energies who were called into the sacred circle.

3 The Akashic Confirmation

I turn over to you, angels and guides, my human anxiety and confusion when it comes to my destiny. In fact, if I decided to go see an open starry night sky, I can rest assured that the story of my life and all past and possible future lifetimes are written in the Pleiades. My Akashic record is sacred and unbroken. All I need to do is go out at night, when the sky is clear and get into a prayerful state, however that feels and looks to me at that moment. Ask, then, that your angels and guides give you direction and comfort when you feel out of balance. Listen for answers. They may rush in to your mind, they may come slowly. They may come over a period of time. Your guides will never fail you. Your whole incredible human body and ancestral lineage is part of an unbroken connection, designed by the divine intelligence that is your very precious soul.

Devocation: I thank all who came to be part of this magical event. Please, go if you must but stay if you will, hail and farewell. May the peace of the Goddess go in our hearts, merry meet, merry part and merry meet again!!

(Time to replenish the body with food and drink. One of the wiccan practices with post ritual nourishment, is we take a piece of food or a bit of the drink and offer it to the other person by saying "May you never go hungry" and also "May you never go thirsty")

Bless it up and enjoy!


I will keep these words of today's ceremony close and it is ensured I will have access to it, should I want to work with the divine energies expressed and honored here in this session.