a new voice

dressed as the night sky
just as unlimited
like a mother planet giving birth to a new era
she is asking for a new voice
since the old one will be too familiar
and easily recognized
identity shape shifting
drifting
coming into her own
transitioning zone

we are so much water

you are so much water
and this could go one of several ways
you could flow directly into me
attempting to quench the thirst you have noticed arising in me
you could be subtle mist
surrounding me when i am needing to be cloaked
you could ask me to be still enough long enough
to absorb you and know then, what it is to be merged with you
and I am so much water
this could go one of several ways
i could rush quickly
draining myself of myself until
you had your fill
and i was extinguished, knowing the impermanence of
this body of water
i could fill the space with loud splashing droplets
to drown out any other sounds
make them less important
we are so much water
the force of this element
driving each interaction
promising satisfaction
eliminating distraction

puzzle

how has the human race
erased the memory of itself from itself
so successfully
so fast
and what would we want to remember if
we could?

but we are not anywhere near really remembering
until
the writers
dreamers
seekers
scientists
visionaries
believers and non believers
get together to compare notes
so a collective
remembering might begin
and a puzzle may start to form
in order to be solved

believe in me

i created an echo from my bones, each echo opens a door and each door led to somewhere new and each window had a view and all i knew was what I could do and then the intention from each summer night became golden  and the songs i wrote had some of the words from my arsenal but what i wanted to do with them was take them up under my skin so that i was infused with their fierceness and honesty and maybe that is where they lived so that was where i pulled them from and when i pulled them more came falling out like a release from a cloud of passion and there they were falling all over me from inside at the same time and i mention this only to draw attention to the source being many sources but really it is only one source and i am in the midst of it all begging you to believe in me as i stumble down the path less traveled and the path that i always wanted appears before me while you grab a hold of some branches as we pass them and i smile, thinking what would you do without something to hold on to right now and on we go down the path, thinking our thoughts without trying, being who we are with passion, knowing what we know with clarity, feeling what we feel with intensity, bare bones being the place to start, the place we started and the echo is felt and heard across the valley, the echo from my bones

driven to light (from around 2001)

pieces of you
are my thoughts
prayers mingle with love
intent guided by spirit
and ocean sized tears
but the pain is fleeting
sadness dissipates
into comprehension of other emotion
into compassion
and pieces of your world stay with me
like moths on the glass against the light,
insects driven to light
always in motion always in flight
striving to make sense of the dense mass of this night
closing in around my heart blocking my sight
life breathes new rhythms
pounding out my soul
and the blues leak from my pores
life drumming a pulse never to be feared
i grab the air drink in the salt smell of ocean
ocean sized tears down my cheeks but i am drunk on laughter
you are always in my psyche
humming a distant melody

center

at the center
I have a witness
she has the head of a bird
body of a tree
both wings and roots and she sees
she does not judge

i get all worked up inside
she catches me and says
"this dream does not define you
you are spirit first and spirit last"

she is the sage
loving impersonally
and fully
understanding nothing exists outside
the supreme nameless Creator

according to me

1.

the religion of your
precious breath
while you sleep
convinces me
of divinity


2.

I believe in you
Do not take this for granted
I am here for now


3.

Love is energy
Energy is consciousness
Draw me into you

Rest your heart here

 understand the brightness inside yourself that endured during misty foggy strange moments and this brightness may be invited to settle into you, the more you feel it consciously the more it manifests itself, and the potential for getting love from someone is separate from this brightness, this wellness, this wholeness.

 

with another person you experience a merging and you may compress your insides to fit them into you, the penetrative act of loving, the reciprical act of being loved. and then the flow goes a new direction. from loving to loved, from loved to loving until it overflows, or until it dries up. when i focus on it, i can feel the brightness overtaking and sparkling and moving around in way that leaves less room for anyone to enter and take up space. instead, i witness a new level of this relationship with the great mystery.

 

some say the only real or important relationship you ever have is the one between yourself and the great mystery. if they say this, they must have their reasons.

knowing and seeing

there are those moments that hit you when you realize that which was defining you no longer serves you in any way and sometimes people show up so clearly in your mind and you think how could you have ever not seen them that way, seen them with that clarity but there they are glistening with the appearance that had eluded you before and wanting to see people clearly is a desperate need at times and at other times you are trying hard not to see them preferring a selective blindness to the pain of knowing and seeing and knowing and seeing are all you can handle sometimes and at other times you will be using all of your senses to sense as much as you can about whoever crosses your path but maybe you want to be numb at some point maybe you want to be separate but u can never be that because all of your needs and desires are tied into other peoples needs and desires and you cannot exist in some independent space without serious consequences to at least your mental health if not physical health and needing people is one of these things that we fight but there is no getting around it no matter what you do no matter what you think no matter what you say and that is the reality until you leave this world