A beginner

It seems like

everywhere I look

I am reminded of the abundance 

The beauty and the bounty

There is so much. There is plenty 

And still too many go hungry, are overexposed

to the elements 

How can we rest until the needs are met?

Until the plans are set

To lead with compassion and love

to let these drive our leadership

and not allow these to be drained from it

by corrupt agendas

and incorrect priorities

we come upon

knife to the neck urgency

bleeding out on the street urgency

problems vibrating at a fever pitch and still we

manage to get through our days

without sobbing with grief at every atrocity

we build walls within to help us get 

through, out, over, under or alongside. 

I have not mastered this. 

I am still a beginner, 

running laps around the question

of what do I do, beyond what I already do?

and I know this is temporary

but this does not excuse me from the efforts

to make it better, to soothe, to calm, to hold tight

until the nightmares have become

beautiful, peaceful dreams

woven with safety and star dust. 

 

formations

 While the oceans were forming, so too were the plans

of the Creator Goddess and other gods

When the first forests began to rise and fill the landscapes

so too did the intentions of the nature spirits within the

trees and the soil

There were secrets bursting open like the births of the stars

and we were still a distant possibility as humanity

so incredibly insignificant and also greatly powerful

contradictions inherently built into our nature

into our structures

into our DNA

yes, our blood holds the secrets that did not escape when some

of them burst open. 

our bones hold memories of the feasts and the famines

of the wars and the stillness of the peaceful times

we are locked into this reality in certain ways

but have the gift of imagination that can free us 

from some kinds of suffering

oh, may we let the peace in. 

may we let the peace win. 

you are the constellation

 You are the constellation I point to

when the night sky asks me why

your complexities are vast, the mind and

the heart sending out depth as 

vibration. and as frequency, but to me

you just shine and sparkle

and twinkle like you're meant to

your presence causing more attention 

than attempts to name every grain of sand on the beach

you may be out of my reach. 

I cannot always name what happens to me

when you are around but its powerfully alluring

like the scents you've been wearing

And you sometimes catch me staring

and in some moments 

I may catch a ride on a shooting star, then 

you don't seem so far

you always show up on the radar

Channeling in Energy Healing Sessions

My friend has been coming to see me for Reiki healing for a few years. Wow, has it been a few years? It really has. 

Yesterday she came by, and I asked, like always, please tell me anything you'd like me to know before starting. 

She told me where she was coming from and as usual, I had instant notions of how I could assist her with energy healing practices. 

This time, I decided to call in the assistance of any spiritual sources, Gods, Goddesses, Angels and so on, who I felt would be most helpful.

We began the work, and as she did her breathwork, I was able to speak in a soothing manner, addressing the content she had told me about. 

Then something happened that felt new, grounded and full of good energy. I had called in Jesus as healer, Archangel Raphael as angel of healing, and White Tara, goddess of compassion and swift liberator from suffering. 

As I stood with my hands hovering in position to give reiki, which was already happening, I got a very clear message from Archangel Raphael. 

He said, clear as a bell in my thoughts, "You are twisted up so tight sometimes, you are in knots. This twisting up gives you headaches, stomachaches, and back aches at times, it is time for you to unwind these tight knots and let go of that habit. Use your breath"

Shortly after I heard and relayed the message, Jesus popped up. His energy was a bit playful, but also powerful. He said to her: You are a bright shining light! Sometimes you dim that light, either to fit in or to appease a person or people. It is ok to take up space with your light and let it shine, I will support you and have your back as you do so" 

And finally, I heard from Tara, I chanted to her OM Tara Tutare Tutare OM and her compassion flooded in. She said to her: Your suffering is like a piece of ice. It is hard and cold. It makes you feel hard or that life is hard. If you bring your attention to it and your warmth to it, it will melt, becoming water, with which you can do so many things. You can make tea, you can water plants, you can bathe and cleanse and purify. It is in the suffering state so you can transform it. 

After I got all these messages through, I finished the session. I realized that wisdom does not belong to any one religion. It is like you can stand in the rushing river, feeling the truth and messages and then you step out of it, and you come back to the individual self. I am excited already for my next encounters, 

inner earth

dreams dwelling together

in lands of aching beauty and contradiction

sunsets and sunrises swelling up high

or way down low

where the moon would never go

goddess of inner earth

undulating and sending an echo

to reverberate against bleak blackness of the night sky

the echo sent out and returning like

a mirror reflection of all

that dream content, subconscious and outstanding 

in its complexity

I start to settle myself somewhere

between I will never know, and I know it all

resting there, perched on the outstretched branch.

"Into the sky"

 the earth could shake

shake herself free of us

then where would we be?

I reached out to him 

and he was in need, indeed

it is a habit my heart has developed

getting activated by the suffering states

other friends exist in

Compassion wells up

knowing there is only so much I can do 

to facilitate his well being

and how I have learned the hard way

people must be ready and willing

and some causes for suffering

are out of their control

in those cases, I throw my hands in the air

resigning to feel way too much 

about the lack of justice pervading the space 

my heart aches when I see his face

And I know it's been the school of hard knocks

that taught him harsh lessons

when kindness beamed through

it made some impressions 

he tells me I am "all heart and emotion"

then my mind becomes still

waiting for silence, knowing it will spill

like glittering shards into the backyard

and as his tears fell

I knew he needed that moment

he needed a witness to take in the whole mess

I did take notice

I did acknowledge

how and where and what and why

because that is what the moment called for 

with his ancestors sending flares up into the sky

Sacred Collective Contract

 

 

Sometimes there are moments

Hemorrhaging with intensity

That seem to ask more of us

 Than we ever thought we could give.

There are days that stand out glaring

From other days

Building rhythm upon rhythm of

Staggering and real emotions

I cannot say with certainty that this is just the Kali Yuga, the dark age,

and the impending Satya Yuga, the peaceful age

 will come to soothe us after this, no

I cannot name it that way.

This is a moment in time that astrologers have

Much to say about but I cannot find refuge

In their words and assertions.

I must sit upright, stand upright and admit

How close to the edge this all feels right now.

So many people repeating that they too

Cannot breathe, but I am unlike them

And I know I must take deeper breaths

Breathing into my core, while I still can and because

So many could not. I will breathe with intention

With compassion, and commit myself to action

Taking action for the countless atrocities we are collecting

On record, and for those we name, and cannot name because

We never knew their names. Those unnamed have stories

That fill the nights with a presence that makes my eyes tear up, my throat dry,

And we all know why.

And so as the moments of right now reverberate off the walls surrounding us,

Perhaps we go outside and dig our hands into dirt, perhaps we give water to the green growing things

That sustain our lives and health. Perhaps we learn that we are multidimensional

Multifaceted creatures that can create better outcomes, healthier and more beautiful

Outcomes, that can create better internal worlds that translate into a more sustainable,

Just external world. We are these beings, in this moment of time and it is our sacred collective

Contract to do our parts in the grand scheme of creating a world better than and beyond our

Wildest dreams.