even when I am the only one

I have more than 

questions now

I have aches and longing

and laughter that changes the whole room

even when I am the only one in it

I have more than questions

I have timid answers that want to be humble

that do not want to ruffle feathers 

but do want to burn down 

the structures of oppression

and that is not polite

so Fuck being nice and Fuck being polite

and let us allow real authenticity to lead us

you do not need to be angry to be authentic

but being angry can be authentic and cathartic and real

I have more than questions

for all of us

for each and everyone

for myself and 

my family

for the strangers and the 

closest to me

and the questions hit the wall with force

then slide down to the floor

are they useless?

No, beyond the questions is hope

there is faith

there is a belief in healing and improvement

there are dense forest mountainsides

and invisible signs that are screaming

Not For Human Consumption

but I am not sure who else

hears the screams.