pieces from before and from now

2013

shadow dusk fragment
i am no longer tethered to you
in that way
that i was
so i feel the energy flow
back to me
release you and i am free
no tears were shed
it was not from you i was truly fed
now i seek wholeness
the kind you would not even recognize
in these eyes

1995

I know you want to love
it is written all over your hopeful grin
your lips have searched out answers on mine
to questions already beginning to form
in your mind
if only i could dissolve the fear to trust
if i could close the distance
and find the answers you seek
we could share power
your eyes will meet mine now
but only with wariness
through a guarded gaze
a poorly designed maze
in your voice,
hesitance, transparently timid
the tone is short, conclusive
lined with regret
i have circled your cages of fear

i felt my way here to you
my eyes decoding yours
they said
i could love again
but not you
and not now

because I know too much, you fear me.

2013

roaming the earth for that one fix
moments that might liberate your consciousness
are locked away from you
silently being revealed in unexpected ways
so you pay attention
a little more