Song lyrics from a few years ago. Still in progress

"hold my breath"

Verse 1:

Noticing your strange tendencies,

how you never say please,

I really don't know what to tell you

Except for what I have

I knew from the beginning

you would make me mad

(chorus:)

But I still want to see you

Despite all this, I want to see you

I like the way you kiss


Verse 2:

I realized I hold my breath

when you enter a room

and yeah, I do the same when you leave

But to you, I would never describe a tendency

You'd be unlikely to believe


(chorus)


Verse 3.

how our temple was created, I wonder

listing ingredients while you sleep

while you sleep I follow rivers to the deep

deep places you avoid, finding that you

awake, slightly annoyed

as if you understood my explorations

and took them personally, which

makes no sense, so of course,

I begin building that fence, one you

may never destroy or climb all the way over

just to find

I am no longer there, waiting

I am no longer waiting

for anyone.

All Of Us

All of us
told
the stories
of terrifying truth
until
no more so called
reality could be squeezed out of the
sick dream
dream of society
where people have grown
so incredibly numb and indifferent
to the suffering
of their fellow
human being
their fellow
sentient animals
their sweet sacred
natural environments
and in the dreams we do dream
with eyelids fluttered closed
we visit different kinds of places
not haunted by the plague of the current
reality
we have agreed to participate in
or hang along the edges of
participating in
horrified at our own indifference

wondering from the core of me
the core of vision that allows a person to SEE
when did this devastating cancer begin
to spread
from who's head?
who collectively
who individually
decided
we would
trap ourselves as whole
societies
in patterns of mindless destruction
and injustice
sending scholars sifting through
histories
that may have been
better
somehow
better than
pollution
war and greed which seem to spread
at the same pace or faster
than the conscious intentions
to send out loving kindness
sincerity from the most ancient tree

who is it that has blinded us that we may no more SEE
what this path leads us to

Let US no longer tell those stories in our minds
schools
news media outlets
places of worship

No More

Let us swing the ship of this planet
out of the way of the course of certain destruction
Let us steer Ourselves
toward healing, toward awakening
toward love
unconditional
toward being
the change
and quickly now,
Quickly

Holy Wood

Justified

anger like spider flames
shoot out in all directions

hope like an animal crawling back inside
the original cave
the original constellation
to be pointed at
by admiring fingers
by the reverent thought that lingers
devotions written into songs by singers

my bones created a frame
for me to live out the karmic acts
debts paid, emotions flayed
out in all directions
spider flames
licking up the sides of each predator on the prowl

look how I use this towel

cleaning up a mess with no beginning
but pray here
about what was preyed upon
don't lose yourself in the similar spelling of the two words
just one letter different
but meanings seem to reverberate off of the
warrior battle cry
emitted by her solar plexus when she walks in the room

take a look at these chakras
before I ascend to a different page
within clouds of smoke from sage

and palo santo

some may be scared of a lot though
I have less and less fear
until when it matters I know how to disappear.

make sense of this

Maybe, her life was a comedy of errors.

What rules dictated anything,
within the hours of her days?

What tiny stars bled through
the purple blue black of the night sky
to show her the way?

what is the Way?

why had she been stuffed into
the Form of a Body
(such a primitive vehicle)
more times than she could count or remember?

Purpose was fuel for the Almighty,
for the Righteous.
So, seriously, so, really
what right did she have being here?

What place does she hold,
secretly between silent fingers
turning silver into gold?

all value placed
on the abundant stones and treasures of
Earth
of Gaia
are so arbitrary
yet values placed on life
human or other sentient animal
seem just as
haphazard and subject to change
as far as World Market Value

how to
make sense of
this?

how to make sense
of mystery
insistently un-verifiable

with palpable life force
tangibly leaking
from situations
heavy with severity
heavy with blood

what kind of story line
can be recycled so many times
just slightly different
at each presentation
that it fools you into thinking
it has merit
after cycles of centuries that
have created out dated
sub plots?

maybe a comedy of errors
erroneously emerges
from these lands of all possibilities,
it is way too hot
and then so quickly
it is about to freeze.

ritual rust

all that laughter
left out the intention that day

but we fit inside
the hollow tube
of our distractions

tears left out the true cleansing that day

but we fit inside
the turbulent tide
we had said we
wanted to ride

the tiny microcosm negated
the massive macrocosm
and the cosmos
shivered down fault lines
down pointed statements
about Everything Being Fine

Skeleton touch, Ritual rust
the soft, tender voice used to be a must
where have we gone
wrong
right
when did we give up the fight

Without the original ingredients
we have such limited sight

and a strange energy lingers
during every
bright starry night

timing

the riddle
of her gaze
created an echo

is it always time

to unravel stories
promised by the quieter gestures
by the silence?

results of her smile
frozen in the vault
of some serious dreams
palms against palms
face to face
facing the facts
now silence pounds his ears
she proposes they work on telepathy
he finds that a waste of time

teasing out truth
like
loose teeth,
but the pain is delayed
the joy is delayed
all emotions delayed
like an airplane
like a promise
deferred
like a dream
too deep inside her

the riddle of her gaze
creates the flow

visitation: 2 parts

1.

melancholy turned into ecstasy shortly after you turned up
showed up and flipped it all around
until the sounds that first sounded sad
were full of joy
and laughter was impossible to suppress
and sadly
when you left
melancholy returned again
but it was really just the forgetting
that you are always
here
with
me
I know forgetting takes joy with it
remembering brings it back
as trees talk to the wind
how could I forget?
how could we forget you?
a distant connection
awake just long enough to make me
smile into my coffee that morning
they wondered who or what caused the grin
I would never tell
faith fills up my eyes to the eyelashes
like tears
were falling
like leaves were
falling
like drops of rain
off of the cherry blossoms
so my eyelashes remember
filling you into every sight available
the gift of seeing what has always been here

2.

her hot temper
her hot face flushed
a power surge not like electricity
but water pouring into the currents of the present
the present currents
they say to produce they say to go forth
they say to move on
to move again
stop sitting still
her hot temper flared
her face flushed in anger
injustice always present
the time to fight was always now
even when sick and frail
which
she was not
she was Not
anything but real
what are these limitations
if not imposed by rigid worldviews
that made her want to scream
they say to produce words
make meaning from nothing
that anger seemed to fit her well
into her later years until it becomes oversized and
she shrinks to fit inside it
desperate to be understood, desperate to be sought out
these words are appearing on that branch
just over there by a poisoned river
ask not what you can do for your country
but what you can do while raging against your
country's limitations
her heart is in it all the time
face flushed
ask for her name in the first conversation
she just might lie to you
what are names anyway? she reasons
what are labels besides too constricting?
they say to produce, they say go forth, they say move on

stop
sitting
still

Information about the Pineal Gland. From "Wake up World"

"The pineal gland is the center for receiving the rays of sunlight, which once received are shot in different directions of the body. Also, it is the receiver of crown energy, which holds an incredible amount of information about your past, who you are as a soul, your future, your evolution – and the entire history of the universe. Everything is stored within your higher self in the universal consciousness.

It would be impossible to receive all of this information at all once, so the pineal gland functions like a coordination radio tower, receiving the strongest rays coming through from all light sources – higher self light, sunlight, moon light and star light – and has the ability to decode the information which is stored within these light frequencies.

The influence is a magnetic influence; it is not an electrical light, but gravitational energy. Light and magnetism are one and the same. The earth is magnetized by the sun; all the local creation on this planet is attuned to the magnetic field of Mother Earth, who is attuned to the magnetic field of the sun, which is attuned to the magnetic field of other star systems within the Milky Way Galaxy, which is attuned to other light networks within the universe, and so it is all one system. Every cell carries the same code of DNA, and by attuning to the light frequencies and the information within these frequencies, we are able to rewire our DNA.

An example to illustrate this relationship is a large corporation: The people on the floor only have so much information. When they encounter a problem, they will turn to the branch management where the level of information is slightly higher. If the branch management doesn’t know the answer, they will go to the regional managers, and if they don’t know the answer, they will go to the CEO, and so on. This hierarchical structure illustrates how our local solar system – the sun – is connected with other high vibrational light bodies within the universe. And it is our closest most tangible and immediate resource for recoding our DNA.

The macro level contains our planet, the universe, the galaxies and all the different star systems. On the micro level, the way this structure plays out in you is this: Your pineal is your local receiver of sunlight, and it disperses this light within your body. On a deeper level, each cell within your physical network has its own sun, which is the nucleus. And similarly, as the sun is magnetizing all beings within its rays, the pineal gland acts like the super sun for the body and magnetizes every cell within the physical system. It coordinates the light within the body. The system within the body that carries the light looks like a wire that travels through each cell of your body. It is a coil, a spiraling wire that is a conduit for light. That wire we have known to call our DNA.

By tuning into the pineal gland we enhance its abilities to receive light, and by receiving light we increase its magnetic powers and thus it is activating and magnetizing every nucleus and cell within your entire system. Thus, through pineal focus and sun gazing, you take charge of your own brainpower and make it your best ally. You gain direct access to the center in your brain that receives cosmic data straight from the source, eliminating all traces of confusion.

Pineal Facts

• Native Energy:  Static Electrical
• Native Aspects:  Intelligence, Intuition, Psychic Powers, Imagination
• Color:  Violet
• Purpose:  To enhance mental clarity and intuition
• Symptoms of Dysfunction:  Frequent headaches, sinus pressure around the eyes, bad eyesight, cataracts, glaucoma, insomnia, paranoia or depression.

Language of a balanced pineal gland

When you pineal gland is balanced, clarity of mind is a regular and natural state for you. Having a calm, primed mind gives you a powerful presence in this world. You don’t need any external means to stay sharp and clear; in stead, you easily tap into the unlimited resources of your intelligence. Other people respect you for your quick mind and ability to see things clearly. Your life is a series of synchronicities and you feel the flow of life on a daily basis.

Language of an imbalanced pineal gland

When your pineal gland is imbalanced, you feel a lack of mental clarity, good memory or the ability to handle stress. You are unable to stay focused and efficient, and unable of relaxing your mind to heal negative thought patterns that cloud your life. You feel confused and often lose sight of the big picture. You wish could get a bird’s eye view of what is going on in your life.

Natural brainpower

Activating your pineal gland helps you restore the power of mind that is yours by birthright. It gives you clarity and mental strength, and the ability to see which choices will make you happy, and which won’t.

Your intuition is directly related to the pineal gland in the center of your brain. As with the rest of your body, the things you eat affect the health of this gland. Certain foods improve the health of the gland while others cause it to deteriorate. Fried foods, coffee and fluoride are some of the substances that will calcify and deactivate the pineal gland. A calcified pineal gland causes you to forget that you are indeed perfect, beautiful, intelligent love.

The psychic ‘gift’

Many believe that being psychic is ‘a gift’. However, it is ‘nothing more’ than the gift of an active pineal gland. Anyone who has reactivated and decalcified their pineal gland experiences their psychic gift ‘return’ to them. It is as simple as flexing a muscle."

There are different ideas about what activities will help you strengthen this gland to get the benefits discussed in this article.

Planning Stages for the Organization- Imaya's Modalities-- part of the Planetary Healing Arts Enterprise

As some of you know, I have participated in many communities and their follies in my 35 years of life here on this earth. What my "public" may not know is I have had specific and rather excellent reasons for leaving each group I left. Let me say, I learned from each, some offered more than others, but it is imperative now, for my own progress and healing, that I launch my own organization.

In the Tao of Healing, adopted by lots of different people, and adapted to fit each circumstance, it is said,
 

"The healer knows, We heal no one,
we Cure no one, to attempt a cure denies the truth,
Disharmony sown in spirit
reaps imbalance in the flesh
to regain the point of balance,
simply open your heart
offer your life
allow the love to heal
allow the weak to grow
say "I am the healer" and
you step out of the flow
for the Universe flatters no one
but offers its life
when you offer your own"

My organization model, as I have stated elsewhere on this site has very little do with previous models. It is not traditional in the sense that, folks who check in and participate can do that from where ever they are, we do not all need to meet to take part, and for as long or as short an involvement they wish for. This is an unprecedented undertaking.

For example, every contributor will control the conditions of their labor. Fair labor practices are a MUST. Transparency when it comes to decision making is one of very few rules I will set and that means that any decisions made by me, the owner, or folks that participate are made with open doors, on public records. This organization maintains the awareness that separate is not now and has never been, equal.

Also, if you have uplifting music or products that will never be landfill, get in touch! This group is committed to ethical, green practices so seven generations from now, children and all others, will breathe fresh air all over the planet, drink and swim and bathe in fresh clean water and so on.

At the beginning and maybe this will stay the rule, this is a labor of love. Whatever is offered to the group is never required, only appreciated. There is a word some Buddhist communities use called "Dana" or, generous giving. This will apply to Imaya's Modalities Organization. We accept "Dana" but require nobody to pay for services that people involved choose to give.

Imaya's Modalities calls on all who participate to think in these terms, to get on board with this vision. Every contributor will control the conditions of their labor. Fair labor practices are a MUST.

Transparency when it comes to decision making is one of the only rules I will set and that means that any decisions made by me, the owner, or folks that participate are made with open doors, on public records.

With that, if you have uplifting music or products that will never be landfill, get in touch! This group is committed to ethical, green practices so seven generations from now, children and all others, will breathe fresh air all over the planet, drink and swim and bathe in fresh clean water and so on. Imaya's Modalities calls on all who participate to think in those terms, to get on board with that vision.

Dealing with another part of Reality:

It is necessary to make a public statement about sexual predators in all of the communities of all people. I have learned, in the worst way, no community is safe. I personally, am a survivor of assaults. Those of you who are as well and who are not may feel moved to show solidarity. I must make it clear I have been on the side of many people in my past I feel zero loyalty to now. This is a process many folks go through, in order to get clear about who is solid enough to be supportive to you during some pretty intense and confusing ups and downs, which is what people often go through without the added fallout from being a survivor.

What matters in any type of human relationship at all, is that the person who is coming out of the PTSD or assault /trauma closet have people that consistently SHOW UP. If there is nobody showing up, for years at a time, no checking in, no call, no text, no email, the person who has been hurt will turn inward in pain, or strike outward. This is the nature of that kind of pain. We deal with it differently, but the differences are nuanced, not externally obvious, in most cases.

My intention in saying this is that with the Cosby insanity coming to light, I see this as a perfect moment to identify that men are not the only predators. Women can be too. Women may not commit the acts or at times they do, but they may be complacent and silent or defend the accused, while not having any solid reason to other than it threatens their seat at the proverbial table.

For that, there is a special place in "hell" for them. I was raised to not believe in hell, but I know that within human realms on earth, there are hell realms. Trust me, there are people of all shades, ages, shapes, genders and colors in that hell right now. It is up to them to get out. The gates are open, if you can find them. And if you cannot, it is there you will remain.

I do not have specific rules in place, or answers to the question of what do we do to make our communities safe, I am just drawing attention to this with the hope for solutions in mind. If this is an area you wish to help with, clarifying and intending to make our spaces safe, please get in touch.

About Medicine:

We must start becoming our own, first and best doctors before any other intrusive medical practice begins, take a good long time to ponder what your diagnosis has been, integrating honestly what your habits have been, including those you developed because you needed to fit in. Don't fault your self for this, you probably did need to try to fit in, whether it worked or not. This directly relates to the survival "chakra" or perhaps for secular folks, it is called "solar plexus".

We have ALL been manipulated from that place, it is one of many reasons that society has become as sad, confused and violent as it is. We can and will change this. I am here not to be an expert, but to share openly how I have done what in some social circles is called a "Soul retrieval" Pretty much every person has their own definition of Soul. That is great! It is as it should be. Thus, the journey of retrieving that which has been damaged or stolen is entirely up to the person looking for this particular modality. I walk in worlds of many kinds of faiths, so this group has a tolerance and acceptance policy managed by the creed "Harm nobody and do as ye will".

Regarding Artists:


For all the consciousness that has supposedly been raised over the past decades, it seems that the covert nature of these ills have not gone away, they have become insidious. Rather than rant against it, I choose to offer up suggestions of how to change it if you are interested in actually getting to songs, art and dialogue that can keep your interest and inspire you. I, for one, am more than ready for that to happen on a massive scale!!

1. Stop instantly comparing one artist to another before you have a good sense of their intended message or messages

2. Stop focusing so much on their appearance, and I suggest this because if the celebrity or politician's public is not obsessed with their image and how their image is changing, they will be forced to have more of a reason to be in the public eye, and more and more those will be good reasons and then we will wean off of worshiping celebrities in general.

3. Perhaps doing these things will lead to more of a social conscience for some of them and an ability to take a stand publically and courageously on pressing matters in this world we all share. What a breath of fresh air that would be for a huge part of the American public and for people who live abroad who feel that we are incredibly wasteful and arrogant. Just like a stage of diabetes that is not full blown yet, we can reverse this damaging trend.

 

do u want to sever?

so many gallons of anguish; a few drops of remorse

not nearly enough authentic salve for the open wounds
handed to us by our poisonous culture which we unwittingly paste all over our
hearts and minds.

masks to meticulously create and forget.

forget you still have all of them on.

on which table that is turning
will you spin?

will you ever let this in?

will you grow to a height so massive
that you will no longer be able to see
or smell the soil from which you came?

Do you think you want to know your origins now?
Do you consider claiming your source?
Or do you want to sever from

to become your very own
sovereign force?

so many gallons of anguish
so few drops of remorse
did you think about your source

or did you want
your very own
private force?