all along

moving through
these vibrations
these frequencies
while cleansing intentions
so the transformations
intensify
opening up portals
to new dimensions
while weaving intentions
for healing
for coming to terms
with being alive
being in a vessel
being mysteriously
conscious for now
listening to spirit
and translating
it all into everyday speech
and dance and song
and knowing all along
that this path never comes easy
that its not always sunny and breezy
but the rain is
a tangible gift
we cannot take for granted
that water IS life
that the breath work
leads to death
of the strife
and birth of sparkling new moments
that the breath
of this life
is an echo
of otherworldly blessing
until now I was
just guessing
taking my time
inventing a rhyme
and channeling
all along.

reflections from 2013

pressed against the wall of her own silence
she begins to rebuild
inside herself
reconstruct
from the ground up
all that happened until this point
taught her strength

now focusing that
will power
to bring desired results

and in essence we are full of contradictions
teaching us we have complexities
that emerge even when we worked
diligently to simplify

and the medicine of the silence
helps her rebuild
reconstruct
from the ground up

wanted to say this

the beauty of possibilities
the habitual knowledge practice
of deep gratitude
the essence of this message
like water, like perfume
capturing truth and winds of change

I want to tell him
I am not fragile in any way
but I am vulnerable
please make that distinction

you win

because you are my  muse
I will follow you
into the next moment
with a heart felt smile
ask you to stay awhile
because you are my muse
I will let you confuse
my reasons for showing up
until I laugh it off quietly
admitting defeat
because you are my muse
you win
and I surrender the prize
the look in my eyes
because you are my muse
I move gently around
the possibilities we have outstretched
before us
because you are my muse
I am outstretched before you

identity -- 1 and 2

two movements. 

1.
she speaks as if she doesn't know she is beautiful. she moves as if she doesn't know she's light. she hurts like she doesn't know she's god. she laughs because she knows she's alright. (2018)

2.

I am the laughing Buddha because I know the big medicine of laughter. I am the cosmic Christ, because I love my enemies and I know the oneness is true. I am Shekinah, feminine life force, and all is born from my woman form. I am laughing shaking a fullness of empty from within a night sky darkness.
my heart is vulnerable and open so I like to pretend it is not. the wound is forever healing but I know the big medicine of laughter (2002)