Thank you for your letter and all the things you said and asked for. I will do my best always
to help you with your goals of school and independence as well as food and shelter.
I have really enjoyed you staying in the house. It has been fun for me to do things with you.
I look forward to spending time with you in that Northern County and possibly living part time there at some point. I do talk to others about myself and my aspirations. If there is anytime you feel I say too much, just tell me. I won't be offended. And later, if there is any situation where you could use my help, call and I will come, as soon as I get a cell phone.
If you want to write more, please do.
Love, Dad
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This was written 10 years ago, it is currently 2015, an incredible, unthinkable decade has passed. What has changed, improved? What has remained the same, stagnant? What has ceased to exist?
I include this beautiful, sincere letter because during the past 10 years I had a tendency to forget
how strong my appreciation was for my father, and our dynamic has improved greatly, we are much more open with each other and the trust needed between us is much more solid.
On this blog I talk about the Reversal of the Self Sabotage, I give an explanation for how I came up with the idea for it and then later on I outline the Revisiting of the Reversal of Self Sabotage, I encourage you if you have just gotten in touch with my work to read both here on my blog, there is a way to search for each on Tara's Tongue.
I encourage this because one, main, original intention of keeping Tara's Tongue going, was because I offered up the notion to my readers that the mother tongue of our species is inherently a compassionate one, and that by devoting this writing to that idea, I have provided a service to people who have heard English or other languages and dialects only in contexts that they resent, dislike or feel uncomfortable with.
I wrote the Reversal and the Revisiting because they are relevant to these times we live in. We need practical solutions to everyday problems.
If they make sense to you, good. If you wish to pass them on, go for it.
Thursday, February 26, 2015
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
some encouragement for me and a peek inside my life for you
here are notes written by friends in other states!! how I miss those who were supportive and not predators, like really, I miss them!
"E MIA, he meant IMAYA,
you are an amazing person with such a wonderful, positive attitude
Keep spittin yo freestyles girl and I hope California treats you right!
I am glad I met you, B-funk"
"Dear Juliana
Had to pay the cult a monthly fee
No news of this at initiation!!
What gives?
they continue to clean bathrooms under Chewbacca for glory!
xoxo, T-funk"
Back story: T-funk and I decided that the place we met was essentially a cult and started making mad fun of it just to get through our time at that minimum security kindergarten piece of shit hole.
Oops, am I revealing too much of this bull crap? Bummer.
Here is one more!!
OMFG!!
you are so cool and open and fun
I miss you already
Keep on keepin it so real, OR else!!
-S-Funk
I love that one! very honest.
Open Letter: Sexualized Violence and How to Transform this into A Renewed Global Community
Here is an open letter I wrote awhile back- it is relevant now for obvious reasons:
Read this if you wish to be a part of the sea change this country is getting going, the sea changes us, we change the sea.
One of the times I was assaulted by a person who abused his power led me to write this:
People have been asking me how they can support me.
I tell people they should do everything in their power to transform rape culture.
Transforming this means you must be a strong ally to people who are sharing stories about sexual abuse. It also means paying close attention in any community you are in. You can never assume your area is safe, sorry to say.
Thinking it is safe is living in an illusion. What you can do is refuse to take in media that handles rape and other violations insensitively.
Change what you watch, change what you listen to. Notice the behavior of people around you and ask direct questions. The worst that can happen is that you are wrong about someone being hurt and the source of the problem is something else. There is usually a good reason you suspected something.
I gave many, many signs during the month I was being abused, I even told a person a little about what was going on. I was protecting the person who was violating me because he would lose his job and for a certain time I cared about that. He had come into my private bedroom when I was not there, without asking me.
What spurred me to action was the distress of a young woman I noticed, when I asked her a question, her anguish poured out to me. It was then that she and I reported the abuse and got the man fired.
I urge all of you to be more vigilant, and much more pro active as we move forward.
This one person is sick but that does not really convey how rape culture in this country and in other places is of epidemic proportions!!
Examine your own sincere actions and feelings about this. Be AUTHENTIC.
Express anger, express sadness.
And do EVERYTHING in your power to break the silence that breeds complicity.
Do this, and more, and we will eventually overcome the roadblocks to true justice and a transformed global culture.
Read this if you wish to be a part of the sea change this country is getting going, the sea changes us, we change the sea.
One of the times I was assaulted by a person who abused his power led me to write this:
People have been asking me how they can support me.
I tell people they should do everything in their power to transform rape culture.
Transforming this means you must be a strong ally to people who are sharing stories about sexual abuse. It also means paying close attention in any community you are in. You can never assume your area is safe, sorry to say.
Thinking it is safe is living in an illusion. What you can do is refuse to take in media that handles rape and other violations insensitively.
Change what you watch, change what you listen to. Notice the behavior of people around you and ask direct questions. The worst that can happen is that you are wrong about someone being hurt and the source of the problem is something else. There is usually a good reason you suspected something.
I gave many, many signs during the month I was being abused, I even told a person a little about what was going on. I was protecting the person who was violating me because he would lose his job and for a certain time I cared about that. He had come into my private bedroom when I was not there, without asking me.
What spurred me to action was the distress of a young woman I noticed, when I asked her a question, her anguish poured out to me. It was then that she and I reported the abuse and got the man fired.
I urge all of you to be more vigilant, and much more pro active as we move forward.
This one person is sick but that does not really convey how rape culture in this country and in other places is of epidemic proportions!!
Examine your own sincere actions and feelings about this. Be AUTHENTIC.
Express anger, express sadness.
And do EVERYTHING in your power to break the silence that breeds complicity.
Do this, and more, and we will eventually overcome the roadblocks to true justice and a transformed global culture.
Saturday, February 21, 2015
Hello, my changing shifting planet.
I am updating today with a growing sense of optimism and confidence in my leadership abilities. I talked to two gentlemen in suits who practice their faith, so far, down the street from mine.
I am happy to talk to so many different people, I have always been an Interfaith type, always excited by a good conversation, or song- versation as the album that may or may not be out there was called by one of the singers you all know as India Arie had in mind to make.
What does the platform of publicity give a singer? First, it gives them access to the ears of many thousands or millions of pairs of ears and eyes, taking in the symbols and the messages both subliminal and intentional, that people who constructed the image of the singer have put out there.
What has been shifting for me, as a songwriter, lately is my ability to hold my tongue when it comes to my personal experiences and therefore interpretations of people in the public eye. In fact, I am not hostile toward the messages or music of many who have garnered a huge amount of attention.
What I have been breaking down are the intentions of the individuals who are quick to work extra hard to remain in the spotlight. Is it wrong or right? To be the center of attention, you will receive acclaim if you have charisma, beauty, something important to say, but of course the flip side of that exciting place to hold, is social crucifixion. Social suicide, or worse, character assassination.
Who has this happened to besides JFK, MLK Jr., Malcolm X ? Many others in past similar situations go unheard of, simply because our mainstream history books lie to us. If we were educated from the start to believe in and model our lives after those who gave their lives for many of the freedoms we enjoy today, would we be so morally and spiritually dead and bankrupt? OF course not. We would have so many more choices in our lives, we would be literally a happier, more thriving species.
Many could develop a narrative, in an effort to discredit me. Oh trust me, I have been through a whole lot of story lines that attack my character. People have skipped to my deviant behavior and unpopular opinions but I am quickly almost like lightening aligning myself with the people and circumstances that will give me everything I need to do what I came here to do.
If this is the first of my writing you have ever come across, I urge you, after you finish reading to sit alone for few minutes.
Clear your mind. Listen to your breath. Breathe deeply and close your eyes. Once you have started to feel the rhythm of your breath, invite the word calm into your out breath. Breathe in the word AIR and on the out breath, go ahead and say calm. Or say, I release you.
This is an intro. for some and old school knowledge for others. I will update here or on Facebook, my community organization template is on a page called "Imaya's modalities"
check around for it.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
So alarming!
(song lyrics-- in progress, just a draft)
1.
when will all the violence cease
when will our bodies release
so we truly find peace
ch.
there is no excuse for any
kind of abuse
most of what we have learned
has been so obtuse
2.
all of that self harming
has been so alarming
it must be time now to turn the page
melt all the superficial rage
find time to unlock the
invisible cage
placed around the heart from the start
felt necessary on BART
felt necessary to put the horse before the cart
I may have asked for you to intercede
it is not the way of love
for you to pretend to feed
ch.
Monday, February 2, 2015
down the street
heat beats down against
brown corduroy
struggle slip strut down the street
playing confidence like a toy
sticky blood between thighs
legs move heavy and slow like glue
think long and hard between sighs
think long and hard about you
I find cheap thrills neither cheap nor thrilling
without fail unfulfilling
and always a bore, sorry to dwell
on a subject so sore
respect is a thing
you have to earn
the world owes me nothing is
what you have learned
and heat beat down against brown
corduroy
struggle slip strut down the street
playing confidence like a toy
legs move heavy and slow like glue
think long and hard between sighs
think long and hard about you
brown corduroy
struggle slip strut down the street
playing confidence like a toy
sticky blood between thighs
legs move heavy and slow like glue
think long and hard between sighs
think long and hard about you
I find cheap thrills neither cheap nor thrilling
without fail unfulfilling
and always a bore, sorry to dwell
on a subject so sore
respect is a thing
you have to earn
the world owes me nothing is
what you have learned
and heat beat down against brown
corduroy
struggle slip strut down the street
playing confidence like a toy
legs move heavy and slow like glue
think long and hard between sighs
think long and hard about you
deadlines, calendars, the end of days that were limiting our potential.......waking up.....no exceptions
"the ashes just look pretty on your eyes"
they have marked time
in measured slots
she watches
as they name things and places
so sure of themselves
so certain of the places and names
person
place
or thing
the concept of noun
built every single country or town
but instead, this silly practice handed down and down and down
means they attempt to take control
and instead become instantly controlled
attached to forms
within a bizarre dream
I take as little part in, until I participate
not at all
she sees them pound their heads against walls of their own creation
drowning in heavy sedation
cursing this pain and yet unable to refrain
so simple this is
she thinks
so plain
they spin circles around themselves
orbiting around the illusion
necessary a dream of confusion
the rules of this place are arbitrary for her
she has her own compass for this
journey
finally, as preparation and guidance.
all is intact like never before, so
much in store
beyond the virgin whore hype that
every body
knows just ain't right
why do you choose to self destruct
when we could be celebrating
we could be un- complicating
shout out to Suaro!!!
they have marked time
in measured slots
she watches
as they name things and places
so sure of themselves
so certain of the places and names
person
place
or thing
the concept of noun
built every single country or town
but instead, this silly practice handed down and down and down
means they attempt to take control
and instead become instantly controlled
attached to forms
within a bizarre dream
I take as little part in, until I participate
not at all
she sees them pound their heads against walls of their own creation
drowning in heavy sedation
cursing this pain and yet unable to refrain
so simple this is
she thinks
so plain
they spin circles around themselves
orbiting around the illusion
necessary a dream of confusion
the rules of this place are arbitrary for her
she has her own compass for this
journey
finally, as preparation and guidance.
all is intact like never before, so
much in store
beyond the virgin whore hype that
every body
knows just ain't right
why do you choose to self destruct
when we could be celebrating
we could be un- complicating
shout out to Suaro!!!
Sunday, February 1, 2015
"You think that this collection has a name and is a being" Praxis, Theory and Practice!!"
Confusion reigned supreme when animal was hunted for sport. The odd fact of life is this, when you take from the Animal spirit realm and this feeds you, and you have nothing in your heart or on your tongue but a desire to taste the flesh, you are sidestepping the fundamentally appropriate honor to give to this being who gave sacred life away that you might be fed!!
The animal is sentient, as all animals have been from the beginning of human contact. They create loyalties, they have emotions, they suffer, they die. The human animal, homo sapien, as we are called, is one that has reached a stage in evolution that can only be the crossroads.
There are theories about that which must be done so that the Gaia or Pachamama, spirit of mother earth can re-arrange and re-organize her self enough to regenerate life where there was confusion, deception and pain. She as an entity, or a web, is sentient. She can hear, think, feel and know, just as any other deity or group of deities that humans have offered sacrifices for in the past, in order to gain some sort of bounty. This sort of situation has always been the case for humans. How do I know?
It is a simpler answer than you may expect. When the forces of mother nature are abused, she responds with her own type of answer. I discussed this on the Muni bus with Ramu Aki one day and we muttered to each other about the terrible feelings urban trees have when the pollution from people choke the process they are trying to get through to bring oxygen to the air!! We were quiet for a bit, knowing and feeling it would not always be so unfortunate!
And now, we as a species are very close to a Deity or Goddess, seen in a Feminine way, called
She who hears the cries of the world.
She has been hearing our cries, even the ones internal, that have not been screamed or spoken of yet.
In order to clear up anger, dominance and pain in the dysfunctional patterns that reign supreme when there is no true Buffalo give away, and during a Kali Yuga, where Vedic beliefs are ignored, and animals are captive to systems of oppression, we must shed layers of our own false vision and false sight.
We are multi dimensional beings. We have all that we need to up lift ourselves and re focus. We do not need money, cars, or to be behind bars.
And yet socializing at bars, can be fun. As long as you can regulate your own appetites for the food and drink, without creating messes for others to clean up, let us partake of substances in a sacred way that have been coveted by agendas that are in their final hours. The bounty and beauty of this silly amazing loving nourishing planet is for all who can truly work to protect her and ourselves from abuse, neglect, damage and destructions. Buildings can fall, Corporations WILL go, we will have all that we need from the proverbial ashes that are left, to create the world that all of the most loving clear sighted visionaries dreamed of.
The animal is sentient, as all animals have been from the beginning of human contact. They create loyalties, they have emotions, they suffer, they die. The human animal, homo sapien, as we are called, is one that has reached a stage in evolution that can only be the crossroads.
There are theories about that which must be done so that the Gaia or Pachamama, spirit of mother earth can re-arrange and re-organize her self enough to regenerate life where there was confusion, deception and pain. She as an entity, or a web, is sentient. She can hear, think, feel and know, just as any other deity or group of deities that humans have offered sacrifices for in the past, in order to gain some sort of bounty. This sort of situation has always been the case for humans. How do I know?
It is a simpler answer than you may expect. When the forces of mother nature are abused, she responds with her own type of answer. I discussed this on the Muni bus with Ramu Aki one day and we muttered to each other about the terrible feelings urban trees have when the pollution from people choke the process they are trying to get through to bring oxygen to the air!! We were quiet for a bit, knowing and feeling it would not always be so unfortunate!
And now, we as a species are very close to a Deity or Goddess, seen in a Feminine way, called
She who hears the cries of the world.
She has been hearing our cries, even the ones internal, that have not been screamed or spoken of yet.
In order to clear up anger, dominance and pain in the dysfunctional patterns that reign supreme when there is no true Buffalo give away, and during a Kali Yuga, where Vedic beliefs are ignored, and animals are captive to systems of oppression, we must shed layers of our own false vision and false sight.
We are multi dimensional beings. We have all that we need to up lift ourselves and re focus. We do not need money, cars, or to be behind bars.
And yet socializing at bars, can be fun. As long as you can regulate your own appetites for the food and drink, without creating messes for others to clean up, let us partake of substances in a sacred way that have been coveted by agendas that are in their final hours. The bounty and beauty of this silly amazing loving nourishing planet is for all who can truly work to protect her and ourselves from abuse, neglect, damage and destructions. Buildings can fall, Corporations WILL go, we will have all that we need from the proverbial ashes that are left, to create the world that all of the most loving clear sighted visionaries dreamed of.
war is the worst human invention
"It's not right for a woman to read, soon she gets ideas, and starts thinking....
"Oh Gaston, you are positively primeval.."
"Why, thank you Belle"
Disney, Beauty and the Beast, teller of stories.
To put it plainly, mental illness is one of the most, if not the most stigmatized and misunderstood types of illness known to modern people. The way we define, diagnose and treat mental illness varies greatly all over the planet. There is no consensus as to the best methods in either the short or long term and people in the field come under scrutiny by people in fields of holistic health and other fields when they make choices that affect the whole lives of patients who in many cases are rendered helpless in the face of both their illness and people who feel they know what is best for them.
One of the aspects of this problem is the fact that, especially in the United States where I live and have been able to observe this, once a person is given a diagnosis, there is a tendency to become so complacent with the news, that the person begins to attribute all of their failings and problems to the disease. I am not asserting that none of them are due to the disease, but frequently there is no way to accurately tease out what is really a symptom and what is due to a person giving up, giving in, choosing to step away from their self care tasks.
To put mental illness in a context we will all recognize, historical conflicts have led to World Wars. This is problematic for so many reasons. War is essentially the worst invention humanity has come up with. One main reason leading to the Second World War was the man we know as Adolf Hitler was dramatically mentally ill but charismatic enough to find reasons to stoke the fires of fear in German people. The fallout from these atrocities left massive collective pain and wounds in people of Jewish, Romany, African descent, not to mention all folks who are further toward the homosexual end of the sexual preference spectrum. These wounds do not leave stigmata on your hands, they leave stigma, in families, in communities. They cause alienation, separation and misunderstanding.
The true causes of actual mental illnesses are greed, hatred and ignorance. These are under identified as actual sickness when in fact they cause more suffering than any group of humans that has ever been targeted by any governmental body in all of our history on this absurd and stubbornly fascinating planet. How do I know this? Just look at the fallout from the cyclical nature of oppression Men against women, women taking arms against men, people of varying skin colors pitted against each other for jobs that mean almost nothing, where turn over rates at low paying expendable positions become the norm, call it capitalism, call it socialism, until we individually control the conditions of our labor respectively, and can advocate for those who are impaired, who cannot advocate for the people in need, the dream of America the Beautiful is not one we have made come alive. We can make this dream come alive.
Examining your own intentions for leadership in any capacity will potentially unearth the reason for your purpose in that seat of power.
Let the secular and the spiritual join forces. Let science and spirituality intersect for the highest common good.
We the people have come way too far to turn back now.
"Oh Gaston, you are positively primeval.."
"Why, thank you Belle"
Disney, Beauty and the Beast, teller of stories.
To put it plainly, mental illness is one of the most, if not the most stigmatized and misunderstood types of illness known to modern people. The way we define, diagnose and treat mental illness varies greatly all over the planet. There is no consensus as to the best methods in either the short or long term and people in the field come under scrutiny by people in fields of holistic health and other fields when they make choices that affect the whole lives of patients who in many cases are rendered helpless in the face of both their illness and people who feel they know what is best for them.
One of the aspects of this problem is the fact that, especially in the United States where I live and have been able to observe this, once a person is given a diagnosis, there is a tendency to become so complacent with the news, that the person begins to attribute all of their failings and problems to the disease. I am not asserting that none of them are due to the disease, but frequently there is no way to accurately tease out what is really a symptom and what is due to a person giving up, giving in, choosing to step away from their self care tasks.
To put mental illness in a context we will all recognize, historical conflicts have led to World Wars. This is problematic for so many reasons. War is essentially the worst invention humanity has come up with. One main reason leading to the Second World War was the man we know as Adolf Hitler was dramatically mentally ill but charismatic enough to find reasons to stoke the fires of fear in German people. The fallout from these atrocities left massive collective pain and wounds in people of Jewish, Romany, African descent, not to mention all folks who are further toward the homosexual end of the sexual preference spectrum. These wounds do not leave stigmata on your hands, they leave stigma, in families, in communities. They cause alienation, separation and misunderstanding.
The true causes of actual mental illnesses are greed, hatred and ignorance. These are under identified as actual sickness when in fact they cause more suffering than any group of humans that has ever been targeted by any governmental body in all of our history on this absurd and stubbornly fascinating planet. How do I know this? Just look at the fallout from the cyclical nature of oppression Men against women, women taking arms against men, people of varying skin colors pitted against each other for jobs that mean almost nothing, where turn over rates at low paying expendable positions become the norm, call it capitalism, call it socialism, until we individually control the conditions of our labor respectively, and can advocate for those who are impaired, who cannot advocate for the people in need, the dream of America the Beautiful is not one we have made come alive. We can make this dream come alive.
Examining your own intentions for leadership in any capacity will potentially unearth the reason for your purpose in that seat of power.
Let the secular and the spiritual join forces. Let science and spirituality intersect for the highest common good.
We the people have come way too far to turn back now.
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